Emily gave a little gasp, "Oh...now I remember, I think you played that song for me once, never really got that into them, but now I remember." She brushed some hair behind her ear when she finished telling Calvin about what happened with Sam. She gave a little shrug,
"Well you know what happened on Valentine's Day right, Sam and my mini-make out session and how it sort of came out of nowhere. Well after than it was sort of awkward for a while, we talked and decided to forget about it and pretend it never happened, we didn't really talk about what we were feeling. Which we should have. I was having some...what I thought were residual feelings, you know butterflies, from that. So I asked if he wanted to join Irulan and I on a walk so the situation could be settled finally. By the way Irulan loves him which is really cute by the way. And well I told him that we should kiss again to prove to ourselves that whatever we were feeling was just leftover from whatever we ate on Valentine's Day and...yeah didn't really work out how I planned. I felt something...a big something and...I...god I was so stupid. I grabbed Irulan and ran...I ran away. I just was so scared and I didn't want to get hurt again I didn't," she choked as she tried to hold back a sob. She wiped away some tears that had leaked out, "I didn't want this to happen again, I shouldn't be crying over this because it's all so stupid and I really don't want to cause a storm right now. I am getting better at controlling it though so I guess that's something. I just felt like it was going to be Jacen all over again and I couldn't...I didn't want that to happen again since I still trying to move on from him completely. There is that little bit of my heart that still belongs to him," She took a deep breath, "And so then we had the egg project and I told you what happened how all of a sudden out of nowhere, I should have known, I should have known better, it was just like Valentine's Day, god I was so stupid to not realize it then. But yeah you saw me and him at school and whatever and we were disgusting and then prom happened and we behaved the same then Tino came up and said we were disgusting and all of a sudden. Poof...the giddy, stupidly in love feeling was gone. There were still butterflies and awkwardness but whatever it was was gone. We left after that and he drove me home. We haven't really talked about what happened yet. But honestly, we're probably gonna break up since our relationship was formed on feelings that weren't real." She gave a little smile as the tears started to fall again, "And it really sucks because he's a really great guy and he makes me really happy...happier than I have been for a long time."