Emily felt some hot tears build up behind her eyes but tried to pull her emotions back. Sure she knew these tears weren't hurricane worthy, but it would probably be a big whammy of a storm. She sniffled a little as Natalie spoke. She shook her head, "He's a good guy, I know that, he reacted the same way I did the next morning. If he had intended to go that far I don't think he would have reacted that way."
'For me it is,' Emily added mentally when Natalie mentioned that the things she did and almost did with Sam weren't bad things. For normal people sure they were normal, wonderful things, but she couldn't let herself get carried away like that, she couldn't risk it. She couldn't be selfish, if she lost control, even for a second, she could destroy the island and...it wasn't fair...why her...why did she deserve this. She felt a tightening in her stomach and tried to fight back the tears some more.
"I mean, I care about Sam a lot, he's a great friends, he's really sweet, and understanding, and a good listener, and I mean he's cute, you'd have to be blind not to notice that it's just he's not..." she trailed off as Jacen's face popped into her mind and she buried her face in her hands. She felt some moistness seep onto her fingers and she knew that she had lost the fight against her tears...she was so weak...so selfish. She pulled the hands away and let the tears flow freely down her cheeks, "I don't know why I'm still pining after him...I mean he's dating Annie I need to get over it already...that's why I ended our friendship so I wouldn't be constantly reminded of what I want but can never have. And now Sam...God, I don't want to have to say goodbye to him too. I do care about him...I don't even know if it's just friendship or something more disguised as friendship since I won't consciously let myself feel that way about him. And that has nothing to do with...Jacen...I just...can't be that way...with anyone because of." Emily held up a hand...how could she put this. Evan was pretty much the only person who knew what she could do...could she really trust Natalie enough to tell her. Would she freak...would she dump Evan because his sister was a freak. Emily shook her head, "Let just say I have this special skill that makes it a bad idea for me to ever be in a romantic relationship. I don't respond to heartbreak very well."