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John ([info]love_doctor) wrote in [info]genome_project,
@ 2011-02-06 11:30:00

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Entry tags:february 2011

Who: Rory and Mal
What: An unexpected visit
When: February 5th, late evening (after this)
Where: Rory's dream!
Rating: T for Tearjerker. Also for Tissues, since we needed them while we wrote this. Also E, for Everyone Saw This Coming (subsequently, O for Oops).
Status: Complete



Rory didn’t often have trouble sleeping, but tonight was the exception to the rule. He never should’ve put that poem in his journal. Really, the only reason he’d done it in the first place was because Eisen had bugged him to and now... now things were just a mess. Eisen was inexplicably mad at him (okay... maybe not so inexplicably, given how evasive he’d been. Still, Eisen would probably be even angrier if he ever found out that what Rory had told him was a lie). And now Mal suspected. No. That wasn’t even accurate. Mal more than suspected, she knew, and that thought made him terribly, awfully uneasy. It wasn’t that he didn’t trust Mal not to tell anyone (all he could do now was trust her, after all), but he certainly didn’t trust her not to meddle. He wasn’t exactly sure how, but Mal was just... the meddling type. He welcomed sleep when it finally came, although the dream he was thrown into was rather bittersweet.

Unlike his happier dreams, this one found him without functioning legs, although his chair was nowhere to be seen. Rory sat on a comfortable bench, his useless limbs dangling off of it precariously, although he didn’t feel himself to be in any danger. There was nowhere to go, really; all he could do was look into the big, two-way mirror in front of him, gazing into a room without being seen from those inside it.

The room was familiar -- it was the living room of Eisen’s apartment. The man himself was sprawled out on his comfortable couch, holding Lexie gently in his arms. Rory couldn’t hear the conversation they were having, but he really didn’t need to; it was clear by their smile and their body language that whatever they were saying, it was cute. Rory gazed in, his one hand pressed against the glass and the other curled in a fist.



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[info]inadreamworld
2011-02-06 02:20 pm UTC (link)
Mal was…well, getting used to her ability would be stretching it. She’d been practicing, though, and she’d learned that she could choose whose dream she ended up in if she consciously tried. Some nights she would try. Just to see what she could do. This was one of those nights. She didn’t like to do it, no. But her conversation with Rory had left quite a bit on her mind and she was sure that this was the only way she’d get any answers out of him. It bothered her, of course. Because handy as her talent had proven to be, what with its inevitable hand in her ending up with Ed, it was still an invasion of privacy, and one that Mal wasn’t particularly okay with.

Not to mention that it took from her sleep. She was conscious and aware of everything that she did when in a dream world, and she figured that conscious thought made her brain get less rest at night. The only good night’s worth of sleep she’d gotten recently were when Ed was with her.

That in itself was a testament to exactly how much she wanted to hear Rory confess his feelings for his best friend. As she’d mentioned, she’d suspected them for quite a long time, and Rory’s refusal to admit them to her over the journals had done little to dissuade her. As a matter of fact, it just spurred her on even more. And she needed to know. She needed to. So, as she appeared in Rory’s dream, sitting on a bench in the middle of a black room, she was hardly surprised.

“Hi, Rory,” she said softly, half-aware of the kind of dream she’d just stumbled into.

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[info]love_doctor
2011-02-06 02:38 pm UTC (link)
Rory jumped when he became aware of Mal's presence and had to take a moment to steady himself on the bench before turning to speak to her. Given the nature of the dream, he could've easily fallen from the bench. Clearly, his subconscious had designed a trap for him -- there was nothing for him to do but sit on the bench and watch through the glass. The only real escape was to close his eyes, and Rory was finding even that difficult. Even when Mal appeared (inexplicably, just as she had last time) before him it took him a moment to rip his eyes away from the scene that was unfolding before his eyes on the other side of the glass.

"Hey Mal," he murmured softly, clearly less taken aback by her presence than he was before. Part of this was that he’d been desensitized to it a bit by her previous appearance in his dream, but the bigger reason lay in what he was dreaming about. He was clearly distracted, his eyes kept slipping back to the glass. "What brings you here this fine evening?" Like he even needed to ask. Rory's voice was gentle and held no bitterness, although there was a deep note of sadness that lingered in his tone. If Mal somehow really was here, then she was an even faster meddler than he'd given her credit for. But hey, it wasn't so strange, was it? He'd just manipulated Fiona and Sebastian into making out. Why couldn't Mal have shown up in his dream? Stranger things had happened.

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[info]inadreamworld
2011-02-06 02:52 pm UTC (link)
Mal was suddenly aware of how precariously this particular bench was perched on…well, she couldn’t even tell what it was perched on, to be honest. She looked down below them, at the complete and total blackness, and decided that she needed to pretend not to be afraid of heights for a little while. It was just a dream. The worst that happened was that she fell and woke up, right? Right, she thought.

Her eyes rose again, this time not to assess her surroundings, but because of the tone in Rory’s voice. His words didn’t sound sad, nor did he sound resentful or any kind of negative… other than sad.

“Oh. Just felt tired, is all,” she said, recovering quickly. “Decided to turn in,” she finished, running her fingers through her hair. She kept her eyes on his face as she spoke, giving herself a chance to take in the expression he wore. Equally sad as the tone of his voice. What was making him so miserable? The last time she’d been to visit his particular dream, he’d been so happy. So, what was different? She turned her head to what he’d been watching so intently, trying to figure out what was making him feel like this.

There, behind the glass surface – a two way mirror, maybe? – lay Eisen and Lexie, being as sickeningly cute as Mal expected they were behind closed doors. He was whispering in her ear, they were cuddling, occasionally kissing, and talking about something. Through the little amount of lip-reading she could do, she realized that they were making plans. Long-term future plans. Her eyes turned back to Rory.

“Why are you dreaming of this?” she asked him softly. Why are you torturing yourself? she added inwardly.

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[info]love_doctor
2011-02-06 03:01 pm UTC (link)
Rory turned to look at Mal, managing a gentle (if feigned) smile in response and reached over to pat her shoulder. Even in the dream (or perhaps because it was a dream) Rory's hand felt even less substantial than usual, as if he was barely there. He certainly felt like a ghost as he looked through the mirror, watching his best friend and his best friend’s girlfriend cuddle and kiss. He, too, had figured out the gist of what they were talking about, and he grimaced just a little as Eisen caught Lexie in a particularly long kiss. Rory half closed his eyes, trying very hard not to focus on the image, but his breathing changed a little, adding an uneven edge to his otherwise calm demeanor.

He laid his hand on the glass again, although he didn’t look back inside it just yet, turning to Mal so he could answer her question. It was certainly a valid one, that was for sure. "Because," he began softly, "I'm apparently the biggest masochist who ever lived. Even in my dreams I can't stop torturing myself." He turned his eyes down to the chasm below them and then cast another furtive glance at the mirror. "I don't even provide myself with the option of escape,” he continued, although his tone betrayed the notion that he was talking more to himself than to Mal at this point. "I just sit here and I watch him be happy with her."

He didn't have to say anything more, right? She'd already guessed correctly. She knew. How could she not? Especially in his dreams... he was too tired to be contrary and defensive. His shoulders sagged a little.

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[info]inadreamworld
2011-02-06 03:08 pm UTC (link)
This… this was hard for her to watch. She’d grown up with Rory – they were the same age, and she was pretty sure she’d call them friends – and the Rory she’d seen was always at least smiling somewhat. She was sure that he had vulnerable moments, perhaps more than most, but this… this fake-smiles and sincere-but-halfhearted congratulations version of Rory? It wasn’t something Mal was used to. It bothered her. When he touched her shoulder she immediately felt terrible. The touch was light – so light that it was practically nonexistent – but it was abundantly clear that he was carrying the weight of the world on his shoulders right then.

When the topic changed to the scene behind the two-way mirror, Mal turned her head back to look at the scene. Only briefly, though. Her eyes moved back to look at Rory, and she caught the wince and strain to stay calm. Why was he torturing himself so much? Why was he forcing himself to watch Eisen and Lexie hold one another and be happy, when he so obviously had some kind of feeling for Eisen? She knew, she really did, that there was at least a crush coming from Rory to Eisen. It was hard to disguise those looks. Near impossible. To watch him be happy with her, he’d said. It stuck out in her mind more than anything else. After the last dream she’d been into of his, she had naively thought that Rory’s dreams were happy places. This... this wasn’t happy. Far from it.

“You don’t deserve this.”

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[info]love_doctor
2011-02-06 03:27 pm UTC (link)
"This isn't about what I do or don't deserve," Rory intoned. His hand pressed a little more firmly against the glass. He knew he couldn't break it -- it wasn't the first time he'd had this dream and he'd certainly tried before -- but maybe he could be a few nanometers closer. "This is just... the way it is. And probably the way it always will be." He sighed softly. He sounded... resigned. Rory really never liked to complain. Complaining was easy, especially in a situation like his. But Rory hated victimizing himself, and complaining just seemed to make him an easier target. Especially about things like this, things he couldn't change.

"I'm... not upset that they're happy, Mal," Rory told her, feeling the need to clarify. And it was true, at least on some level. Rory was, at his very core, a giver. He made it a point to always give more than he took. Of course, a major problem arose when Rory simply didn't have anything left to give, but usually the ensuing breakdowns happened in relatively safe spaces. Like this one.

Or, sometimes, in the arms of his friends. Or... friend. One in particular. This breakdown, though, this was the one thing that he could never go to Eisen about, which was part of the reason it was shredding him from the inside, and the dilemma only got worse the more serious he and Lexie got. Despite his outward optimism about everything else, Rory was sure it was only a matter of time before Eisen and Lexie became serious enough to move in together, to get married, to have a family... and Rory was only half-sure that his heart wouldn't collapse under the ensuing strain. He joked about it all time, normally in a vain attempt to distance himself from the painful reality.

"I want him to be happy. And Lexie too. They both deserve it."

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[info]inadreamworld
2011-02-06 03:33 pm UTC (link)
She’d known all along. Or, maybe not really known, but suspected. Really, it explained so much. Rory was so upset with Eisen for kissing Lexie, not only because Lexie had gone on that date with Ed, but because… he felt like he was losing his chance. She watched Eisen and Lexie, all smiles and happiness and cuteness… and apparent obliviousness as to how much they were killing Rory.

Rory was being selfless. Completely and totally selfless. He watched them be happy and just stayed off to the side in misery and a type of loneliness that didn’t just come with a crush. She turned her eyes down. He maintained that they deserved to be happy, and she turned her head and looked at him again. “But so do you.” If you asked Mal (especially now that she knew exactly how much Rory was keeping to himself), no one deserved it more.

“I can’t believe you’re so willing to just stay quiet about this.” The tone she used this time was soft, calm and hopefully soothing, and held absolutely no contempt or disrespect for anything Rory was feeling. Mal had been known for crushes on females, before she and Ed had decided they wanted to have a real relationship, so who was she to judge Rory for feelings for another man? Especially one that he had such a strong bond with. “This has to be so hard for you. All of it.”

The only conclusion that she could draw was that Eisen didn’t know. Eisen and Rory were such close friends that Mal couldn’t see him hurting Rory so much if he knew that he was doing it. “How long?” she asked, knowing that he’d know what she meant.

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[info]love_doctor
2011-02-06 03:41 pm UTC (link)
"What else can I do but stay quiet?" he whispered softly. "It's... it would only hurt Eisen if he knew. And Lexie. And I won't jeopardize their relationship like that. Eisen..." he shrugged one shoulder, annoyed and himself for repeating the same words over and over. "He deserves better."

At least Rory could console himself with the fact that Mal didn't really know the truth. She thought it was a crush. Good. Let her. It wasn't a completely untrue statement, after all. Of course, the whole truth, the real truth was that he didn't have a crush on Eisen. No. That term didn't do the situation justice at all. He'd never admit it outside of a dream, but the truth seemed to run much deeper here than he allowed it to in reality. He was deeply, truly, irreversibly in love with his best friend, but even here he wasn't going to tell Mal that, if he could help it. Let her think that it began and ended with a crush. It made things simpler that way. Gave him less to explain.

Even so, Rory's expression flickered at Mal's next words. The question was a little complex, as it wasn't easy to put a specific date and time on these sorts of things. Feelings came gradually after all, especially for someone like Rory. As such, he opted for a general term, although his word choice still managed to neatly capture the gravity of the situation. "Years," he told her. He wouldn't say how many, but there was something in how he said it that implied that, as his feelings had deepened, so too had his anguish with each passing year.

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[info]inadreamworld
2011-02-06 03:47 pm UTC (link)
Mal’s eyes were wide when he explained that he thought Eisen deserved better. Because Lexie was better? No. She frowned and put her hand on his shoulder, squeezing it supportively. “What if you are better?” Lexie and Eisen wouldn’t last. They were too different in too many ways. Or maybe too similar. She wasn’t sure which, but it felt like they were incompatible somehow and the fact that Rory didn’t see it the same way bothered her. “What if you’re passing up something that could be beautiful because you think he deserves better? What if the two of you would be better?”

Suddenly, Mal was adjusting her thought process. No. No, this wasn’t a crush. Mal knew crushes. She’d had a few in her time, and crushes didn’t bring that tormented, empty look. She’d never felt it herself, not yet, but she’d seen it before. This… this was an expression of someone who was…

Years. Years of feelings for someone who Rory seemed completely and utterly convinced that he couldn’t have. “Years…” she repeated, only because the simple concept of it baffled her. Crushes didn’t last for years. Crushes faded when you found out that there was someone better out there for you. She looked at her hands, then raised her eyes again to look at Rory. His pained, miserable, lonely expression did little to deter her current thought process.

She turned her eyes toward Lexie and Eisen again. Eisen was playing his guitar now and Lexie was watching him like his every move was a work of art… but then, Rory was, too, though his expression was more pained. This wasn’t a crush. Mal pulled her lip into her mouth and tilted her head sideways. “No,” she said softly. “Crushes don’t hurt like this is hurting you.” She’d crushed on Ed before they’d been together, and yeah, it had hurt when he’d gone on his date with Lexie, but it hadn’t been a soul crushing, gut wrenching hurt like this obviously was. This type of thing only came when your heart was completely stolen by that other person. “This is more than that, isn’t it?”

She wasn’t going to say it. There was a chance that she was wrong, though she was sure that she wasn’t… but it still kept her from voicing it without some kind of indication on his part.

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[info]love_doctor
2011-02-06 04:01 pm UTC (link)
"Better for him than Lexie?" Rory countered, raising his eyebrows at her. "No. I'd never think that. Look I know you and... and Cait," even in a dream Rory couldn't help but spit the girl's name like it was venom. She'd hurt Eisen. Badly. And he'd had to watch Eisen suffer. "Don't like Lexie, all right? Hell, I'm a vindictive, jealous ass. That poem I made public... that wasn't the only one I posted. But that doesn't mean she's not good for him. And he loves her. He loves her. And what's more, she loves him back. They're crazy about each other and I'll be damned if I'm going to destroy that." Rory shook his head, gazing into the other room for a few moments before he said, "And besides, he'll never... look at me that way. I'm... I came to grips with that a long time ago. I'm the one that should be moving on. Not him."

If Rory had known what was good for him, he would've been a little more guarded. Last time Mal had been here he'd had the sense to be at least a little wary of her presence in his head, fearing just a little for the sanctity of his subconscious. Especially now that he knew about his own ability, and he was beginning to suspect that her presence here was no mere accident. This time, though, he was too exhausted to put up any sort of fight, and too distracted to give much thought to the issue of Mal's presence. Still, it wasn't as if she'd needed to dig around in his head to discover the truth. Rory wasn't used to being an open book when it came to his emotions, but right now his expression told the whole story, beginning to end.

Even so, he flinched when Mal made her assessment a little more precise and he turned a pair of lost, shimmering eyes toward her when she asked (or really, stated) if his feelings were deeper. Rory looked calculatingly at Mal's face, studying its contours as if he were an artist about to draw his subject. He could tell from her tone and her demeanor that she certainly believed that there was more going on than just a crush; it wouldn't be hard to confirm it.

Except that it was. Rory had never, never once, admitted his true feelings for Eisen out loud. Words in his head, Rory could control. It wasn't until they were out in the open for others to hear that they started causing the real problems, and now, even in a dream, Rory didn't want to let them start wrecking their havoc. It was almost the same principle behind not wanting to name the stray kitten that had followed you home when you had no real intentions of keeping it: giving the object a name, a label, made it real, and easy to get attached to. Rory didn't want to take that chance, not even in dreamland. He drew a long, slow breath and fixed his eyes on Mal, repeating the same sentence he'd typed to her only hours before. "Please don't make me say it out loud," he whispered, bowing his head.

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[info]inadreamworld
2011-02-06 04:07 pm UTC (link)
Maybe it was her hatred toward Lexie. But she didn’t think so. In those instances when she saw Rory looking at Eisen like he was the only person in the world? Sometimes she’d see the same thing coming the other way. She knew that it wasn’t her secret to tell, as much as she wanted to, and that Rory was so quick to deny himself the fact that maybe, possibly, those feelings were reciprocated just so that Eisen could be with Lexie Tibbits? She sighed. He already does, she thought, not saying anything out loud as to whether she agreed or not.

The unfortunate truth was that he didn’t need to say it out loud. Mal turned her eyes downward, letting them fall closed in recognition of his sadness. She put her hand on his arm, trying to offer support, but really, all she wanted was to cry for him. Her eyes already felt a little misty, and he hadn’t even said it.

“You don’t have to, but I will, because I think you need to hear it,” she started, opening her eyes and turning to look at Rory. “You’re in love with him.” Again, it wasn’t a question. She watched Eisen with Lexie for another couple of seconds, before turning and looking away because it was becoming increasingly painful for her to watch, too. “But, Rory, there’s nothing wrong with that. There is absolutely nothing wrong with how you feel. And yeah, Eisen appears to be pretty happy right now, but how do you think he would feel if he knew that you were hiding this from him?”

She didn’t know how he’d feel, but she couldn’t imagine that it would be all too good. “This isn’t good for you, either. Keeping this all locked up like it is? Really isn’t good for you. Dreams are supposed to be a place of calm, but look at you… you’re hurting. You’re miserable.” She’d never seen someone look so despondent in her life. “You say he deserves to be happy, but so do you. You’re just as good a person as he is. Maybe better, for being so self-sacrificial.”

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[info]love_doctor
2011-02-06 04:13 pm UTC (link)
Rory looked at Mal with soft, misty eyes. He would've smiled at her, thanked her for trying to offer some peace, but he just didn't have it in him, particularly after she’d spoken the forbidden words aloud. He responded to them with a soft, strangled noise, guttural and involuntary, clearly emanating from deep in his core. "There's everything wrong with it, Mal," Rory corrected her gently, looking back at the glass and watching the love of his life caressing Lexie's face. "He's happy. She's happy. And it's like I said before," He was quiet for a moment, watching the lovers on the other side of the screen. "He loves her. For just as long and just as much as I..." he broke off. Even now, after Mal had released The Truth into the air, Rory still could't allow the words to leave his own lips. But the feeling was there. It was there, crackling in the air around him.

"It's basic utilitarianism," he explained, turning back to her. Here, a bit of the old Rory was beginning to poke through -- he was relying on philosophy and knowledge as a defense mechanism to shield him from the raw, gaping wound that was on inescapable display before him. "The sacrifice of the one for the sake of the many. In this case the two. But still, two is more than one." He glanced back into the mirror, his lip quivering slightly as he spoke. "And they fit together so perfectly."

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[info]inadreamworld
2011-02-06 04:15 pm UTC (link)
Mal, for a minute, didn’t say anything. Her eyes stayed on Rory while he talked about Eisen and Lexie with such a deep sadness that Mal was pretty sure she was having sympathy angst. Still, she couldn’t stand it. Rory didn’t deserve to be sad. And sure, she was no great Lexie fan, but even if it hadn’t been her, even if it had been Cait in Lexie’s position, she’d want to do something. Love, like the love that Rory was so obviously feeling for Eisen right then and had been for years, shouldn’t be forced to step aside for something that Mal’s gut told her wasn’t going to last. It was wrong. It wasn’t fair.

She frowned as he mentioned sacrificing his own needs for the needs of ‘the two.’ Shaking her head, she bit her lip. “But Rory,” she turned her eyes back to the scene in front of them, “it’s not fair to anyone involved not to know. Eisen deserves to know. Lexie should probably know and… god, you. You deserve to be with the guy you love…” she knew what she was saying would do little good to convince Rory to speak up, so she took a long pause and then her eyes narrowed in conviction. “At the very least, you deserve to be with him in your dreams.” The last part was definitely a statement more than a question, and she looked around them and focused.

Lexie disappeared. Eisen was confused, but she turned her head to look at Rory, focusing on him enough to make his legs work. “You need to go in there,” she said, putting a small floor in front of them, one that only spanned from here to a door beside the two way mirror, leading into Eisen’s living room. “Go be with him.”

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[info]love_doctor
2011-02-06 04:19 pm UTC (link)
Rory would've argued. He would've told Mal that her convictions, while sweet, weren't the same ones that he subscribed to. Rory was of the opinion that, if he'd made it this long, he could make it even longer, even if he knew in his heart that the strain might eventually damage him. What was the good of telling Eisen anyway? Or, worse, telling Lexie? That would just make Lexie paranoid and Eisen uncomfortable (and probably piteous too, which was worse). Although Rory had, in his weaker moments, occasionally thought he saw a glimmer of hope, the tiniest flicker in Eisen's eyes that might indicate reciprocation, he had all but given up that dream.

He was just about to open his mouth to articulate these points when Mal, strengthened by some strange emotional force -- sympathy, pity, even just sadness -- decided to change it. And change it she did. Quite literally. Rory's eyes widened as the gaping chasm in front of him was suddenly bridged by a span of floor the floated on nothing, and he gasped lightly when he felt the muscles in his legs tingle and grow. He got up gingerly, shaky on his feet at first (after all, this wasn't like that first dream she’d visited where he was used to walking), but after a few cautious steps forward, Rory's heart began to pound.

He didn't even think to ask her how she did it. He didn't need to know, although now he was sure that it was definitely her doing.. Rory himself had tried to escape the situation he'd placed himself in, or at least break through the mirror, many times before, but never with any success. Mal, however, seemed to be able to manipulate the constructs of Rory's mind with ease, but that wasn't a problem that Rory was really considering now. All that mattered was that he get through that door.

Looking back at Mal, he gave her a shaky smile. "Thank you," he told her sincerely. "I don’t know how you... thank you." With that, he hobbled over the makeshift floor and gently pushed open the door. "Eisen?" he asked, entering the room. His gait was stilted and awkward, but at least he was moving. Really, if Mal hadn't been able to will his legs to work, he would've crawled.

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[info]inadreamworld
2011-02-06 04:20 pm UTC (link)
“No need to thank me,” Mal told Rory, a small smile on her face because at least she’d been able to bring him peace in his dreams. This ability, this power, as strange as it was, could be a good thing sometimes, she decided. If it brought a smile to Rory’s face, with how sad he’d been since she’d discovered his feelings, it couldn’t be all bad. She only wished that she’d thought of it sooner. “I’m glad to help.” She only wished that there was some way for her to help him in reality.

She didn’t want to watch – such moments were better when they were private – but a small part of her couldn’t look away as Rory slowly made his way to the door, pulling it open. She didn’t know what would happen, but she did know that she wanted to see it. The sound of the door clicking closed again startled Eisen, who turned his head and looked at Rory. Confusion spread across his face at first, but then a smile took its place, as he waved at his friend. “Rory,” he spoke calmly, like the presence of his friend relaxed him from the confusion that had been in place from Lexie’s disappearance.

No attention was called to the fact that Rory was walking, and Mal decided that it was good that way. Eisen rose to his feet, walking toward Rory slowly. He stopped a foot or so before him, and Mal was quiet, listening to the conversation as it unfolded. “I didn’t expect you here.”

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[info]love_doctor
2011-02-06 04:23 pm UTC (link)
Honestly, Rory found it a little odd that Eisen hadn't leapt up and wondered at what could possibly have brought him here, sans crutches, on his own two feet, but even the sudden functionality of his legs seemed somehow less important in the face of that smile. It was strange, but Rory felt a little... shy. Nervous. Sure, he was only talking to a projection of his subconscious -- it wasn't really Eisen, just Rory's projection of him. Even so, Rory knew his best friend well enough that the imitation was close to perfect.

"I... didn't expect to be here," Rory responded honestly, the hint of a blush beginning to rise in his cheek. He stepped forward, intending to close a little more of the gap between them, but he could feel his false-legs weakening beneath him as he took the step. Rory's own mind, his own fears, were wresting back control of the surroundings, returning things to the way Rory had convinced himself they should be rather than how he wanted them to be. Rory stumbled, tottering precariously and crying out in surprise and frustration as he went down.

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[info]inadreamworld
2011-02-06 04:24 pm UTC (link)
Mal watched the blush creep up on Rory’s cheeks and let a little grin cross her face. They really would make an adorable couple, that was all she could think when she looked at the two of them, face to face. It was funny how they were both blinded to something or another. Rory of how happy Eisen got when they were together – seriously, Mal never saw him smile quite so wide as he did when he was with Rory – and Eisen of… well, everything. She wanted to fix it. Wanted to go to Eisen and tell him that Rory was there and wanted to be with him. But she knew that doing so, even if Eisen talked to Rory about it, would do little more than upset Rory. For now, she’d settle for fixing things in his dreams.

Except, the magic she’d done on Rory’s legs was already wearing off. She jumped to her feet when Rory teetered, the small, invisibly suspended floor thankfully holding her weight as she reached for the mirror. But she didn’t need to worry. Eisen stepped forward and grabbed onto Rory, helping him upright and giving him a gentle, warm smile. “I’ve got you,” he promised. “I’m not going to let you fall.”

Mal’s smile grew a little as she gently sat back down, watching the scene unfold farther. Eisen looked at Rory, an unreadable expression on his face. Confusion was plain as day, but there was something else; something Mal was not even remotely responsible for. This was all Rory’s subconscious. Mal silently urged Rory on, not saying anything but a soft, near-inaudible, “tell him, come on, Rory…”

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[info]love_doctor
2011-02-06 04:26 pm UTC (link)
Rory could've melted when Eisen caught him. He felt so safe buoyed up by his best friend's arms. Eisen might not be the most physically fit person in the world -- even in Rory's dreams -- but to Rory that really didn't matter; there was no one else he'd rather have holding him, keeping him on his feet. As Rory looked up at Eisen's face, he could almost convince himself that it was real, that the little sparkle he thought he saw behind Eisen's eyes might be valid, true. If he thought about it (which he certainly would, later) he would explain it away, concluding that it was a mere construct of his subconscious; a manifestation of desire and nothing more. But now, as Rory gazed up at the face he knew so well, he could almost convince himself that it was real.

Now was not the time for thought. It wasn't even the time for words. Even Rory, with his lifelong dependence on language, knew that. That was why only two syllables passed his lips before rallied his courage and pressed them gently to Eisen's. "Too late."

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[info]inadreamworld
2011-02-06 04:27 pm UTC (link)
Mal was sure that it was just allergens, in Rory’s dream, making her eyes burn. Not tears. No way was the scene before her eyes so beautiful, so touching that it brought tears to her eyes. She reached a hand up to wipe her eyes dry, the smile on her face pretty much belying her argument right there. But for once, she didn’t care. Rory’s lips touched to Eisen’s and her heart could have exploded from how perfect it looked. Eisen, though dumbfounded, had a smile on his face, too, and Mal realized in that moment that they were made for each other. Lexie aside, Rory’s fear aside… Rory Spinelli and Eisen Bradbury were supposed to be together.

She was content to sit and watch the scene continue to unfold. Watch Eisen realize how wrong he’d been and watch them talk about their feelings and their future. But, as with all good dreams, it was beginning to end. Mal felt the familiar feeling of the walls of this dream world beginning to crumble, and she shook her head no, focusing with all her might to keep them upright. “No. No, not yet, not now. Let yourself have this, Rory. Please…” she spoke, though she didn’t know who she was speaking to. “Just a little more sleep!”

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[info]love_doctor
2011-02-06 04:29 pm UTC (link)
The kiss was... perfect. Or at least it was the closest thing to perfect that Rory had ever experienced, in dreamland or elsewhere. But perhaps it was the nature of the very perfection that made everything start to crumble. It was less dramatic than Rory might've expected -- no pieces of the apartment broke off and no earthquake shook the ground under their feet -- but everything did begin to fade, lightening in color and texture and losing solidity until it had vanished. Eisen was the first dream-segment in the room to preform this disappearing act, and as much as Rory scrambled to hold on to him, he was gone as quickly as the rest of his apartment.

Rory's saving grace was the fact that at least he didn't have to watch the world drift away for much longer after the destruction had begun. In just a few seconds, his eyes were opening, allowing the few scant tears that had formed behind the lids to leak out. There was no apartment, no two-way mirror, no gaping chasm of separation, no Eisen. Rory sat up a little, shifting himself to lean back against his pillows as the memory of such a vivid dream washed over him. God. What was he trying to do to himself?

Rory peered through the shadows in his room, his eyes searching for the photo of himself and Eisen that he kept on his desk. Ordinarily, the picture made him smile and restored a little of the sunshine to his countenance. But tonight, as the minuscule slivers of moonlight filtering through Rory's window illuminated the frame, the image only brought a lump to his throat. The single sob he allowed to ripple through his body was soft and stifled by his pillows, but it was enough to coax a few more tears from Rory's tired eyes before he drifted back into dreamless sleep.

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