At the last note of her song she took a deep breath. Emily had to keep her emotions in check, even though she wanted nothing more to break down and cry she knew she couldn't. 'Better? Better!' Singing that to him was really hard for her, that song she was going to keep for herself, locked away forever. Just one of her secret songs. In that song she spoke of that wonderful dream she had about Jacen at one point and when she woke up she sat on the floor of her room and cried for hours over how she had to give up on something that she wanted so much. At his question if he was right about her songs,
"The first one yes, I wanted to show you I could do something more up beat, that not all my songs were slow ballads like my last one. About the last one, no, you have no idea what I was talking about. Yes, he did tell me that he didn't feel that way about me when he found out, but that was because he was getting over a heart break of his own, a big one. I understood that. He said that maybe someday we could be together, but right then wasn't the right time. But...there is...something I discovered about myself...and I just...can't risk getting into a relationship with anyone...it's too dangerous. I thought if I focused on it hard enough the feeling would go away, that I couldn't just have friendship and there would be no danger. But I was so stupid to believe that, if anything it made it worse, it made me want to be with him anymore. So...after school today I'm going over to his house and breaking it off with him...saying goodbye to him, because I can't risk it. If one day he told me he wanted more with me...I know I wouldn't have the strength to say no. So, no, you got the last one all wrong. Most of it was about a dream I had a few nights ago where he was the star, it led me to making the decision to cut ties."
When he walked over to her and touched her shoulder and said she needed to toughen up and that these songs weren't who she was. And then he said she wasted his time...how dare he.
"How dare you presume to tell me to toughen up...you have no idea what I have to deal with each day," she stood up and moved closer to his face, "You don't know what it's like to have to live like a robot to know that you have to live your life alone because of something you no control over. I see you around school with girls flocking to you because of your supposed charm or something that I don't see at all. You get to go on dates, maybe fall in love and have family of your own one day. I can't, I can't risk any of that. I have to let go of every chance for real happiness I could have because of something so stupid. I have to let it go without ever knowing how it feels to be loved in return like that, to be kissed, to be held in the arms of a boy who loves me, to know what it sounds like when he tells me that. I will never get to have that magical night when he asks to marry me, I won't get to pick out my picture perfect wedding, I won't get to cry those tears of joy when we greet our first child. So don't you dare judge me, you have not idea." The anger fell and the floodgates opened as she sunk to her knees and cried.