Emily gave a little smile at Leti's comments saying she was pretty and nice. Sure, but recently she had realized the phrase 'nice guys finish last' was very true and also applied to nice girls too. Now she didn't want to turn into some crazy evil girl, not at all, but maybe she needed to get a little edge. She still dressed the way she had most of her life. Quite modestly in earthy colors. But she wasn't that same girl, her change was relevant in how her poetry had matured and gotten better. But no need to bother Leti with that, "Thanks, but you have to say that, like Evan has to say that. But it still is nice to hear, I just want someone other that you and Evan to find me pretty." She could talk to Leti about it, she was girl she understood, "You remember my Barbie transformation, now I'm not saying that was a good decision or anything, but...I actually kind of liked it. I know Evan said boys only noticed me because I was dressed like a whore, but still it was nice to be noticed. I just wished I knew a way to be noticed and not dress like a whore, just someone more mature than what I've worn since I was eight years old."
Emily gave a little laugh, "Maybe I should get some spray on tan, die my hair even darker, and learn some spanish. Maybe some of that Latina charm will rub off on me." She nodded as Leti went on about Izzy, she had met her briefly and seen her around. Izzy was really pretty. "Yeah, it still just hurts though. I thought Jacen and I were perfectly matched. I'm stupid enough to say that the word 'soulmate' came to mind one and again. They always have the most epic relationships. I mean his sister was in love with my brother. Then I was distraught and confused after my first heart break and maybe my heart led me to him, to his doorstep. He was so different, so complex, so wonderful. I suppose he was invisible like me, he introduced me to Dune and the character of Princess Irulan, a girl who I feel a deeper connection to then any other fictional character. He changed my life...why would all that happen if we weren't meant to be together." Then Emily blushed and met Leti's eyes, "I'm sorry, I rambled." She was so embarrassed and took some deep breaths, but the blush wouldn't go away. She mentally kicked herself, 'Why ame I still torturing myself over Jacen...nothing can happen...but it's not fair, why would fate let all this happen if we were destined to be separated forever?'