Hal
I don't think being special makes us better than anyone else, but I think I understand what you're saying. I don't hate us, but I have a hard time being grateful. I've hurt people. That doesn't mean I'm not glad you feel grateful for what you were given, but the Way deliberately planted a mole in a government agency. Awful things are going to happen to people who never wanted any of this in the first place, just because yet another person thinks they have moral authority over everyone else.
I believe you when you say you didn't know. That's why I'm worried about you. And I'm sorry it hurt you.