His mood was growing more sour, but he'd lost a lot of the fight he'd felt only seconds before. "So your coffee wasn't the one you so gracefully dumped down the front of you?" John asked, smirking. He took a deep breath and exhaled, watching as the air turned white as it left his mouth. "I guess there is something I should say to you, while we're here, away from the castle. I don't have a problem with your sexuality, Adam," he said, moving to take a step towards the other man, then thinking better of it. "I shouldn't have let Jesse go hit on your wife, but I was distracted. You were leaning against the bar, and it reminded me of... You know, it's probably too early for this discussion, and my head is killing me," he said, trailing off. He met Adam's eyes, his hands shaking a little. He put them in his pockets.
"I guess the only way to get past everything, for me at least -- I don't really care what you do -- is to be completely honest with you." He leaned up against the window of the bakery. "I don't mean to start shit with you constantly, Lazzara. I don't even care that you cheated on Michelle anymore. You were right, it was a decade..hell, man, it feels like a lifetime ago. What bothers me is that behind who you are now, I do know you, Adam. At least a part of you. I found you in a bar in DC, slumped over your drink, completely shit-wrecked... And you looked so tired, Adam...so unbelievably tired of everything, like life had dealt you a bad hand and you were paying your debt with your soul."
"I was drunk and I saw you walk into that bar, and I don't know... I needed to do something, to hurt you because you were convenient. You know I had to find out from Mark O'Connell that it was a guy you'd cheated with?" He shrugged, looking at his feet. "So I drank some Polyjuice potion and disguised myself as Michelle. And Adam, I found you there, and we talked, and you were so sincere, I couldn't do what I planned on doing...but I did kiss you. I kissed you, and I'm sorry. Now I'm just hoping that I was right, in that bar, I mean. I'm hoping that everything will be alright."