"Well, I can tell you what I think we should do in this situation but I'm pretty sure that it's the wrong solution, and that you wouldn't be interested, anyway," Adam said, because he was also unprepared for this situation. He had already had one exceedingly difficult conversation with Mikey, he wasn't ready for a second one with Gerard. It was too much for one night.
He got up and grabbed the pack of cigarettes off the desk, lighting one before moving to the window and pushing it open a little, settling in the window seat without looking at Gerard at all. It was time for a chain smoke. And Merlin knew that he'd never touch pot again after the Thing on the Astronomy Tower (all caps, it was officially an Incident, despite having been remedied earlier that night). Maybe he needed to start drinking to finish this conversation. "I run away from you in the halls because I get all red in the face. It's not fun, you know."
Wow, okay, so he was going to get really cranky and take it out on Gerard? Good plan. He sighed and deflated a little bit, blowing smoke out the window. "Look, I'm sorry. I'm sorry I've been avoiding you but all I can think about is you shoving me up against a wall when I look at you. And I can't deal with that and be productive at anything and I don't know how to correct it or I would have already."