chapin drake (sk8tergurl) wrote in freedomtownic, @ 2017-11-13 14:36:00 |
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Entry tags: | !thread, ~chapin drake (sk8tergurl), ~regina mills (mostresilient) |
Who: Chapin and Regina
What: Chatting
Where: Regina's place
When: After school
Song: "How Will I laugh Tomorrow" - Suicidal Tendencies
Chapin skipped the bus that day, preferring to ride her skateboard from school to Regina's place. Putting her ear buds in, music blasted and just let herself get lost in it. Sometimes music in her ears was the only way to calm her feelings of emptiness that she felt constantly. "Here I sit and watch my world come crumbling down. I cry for help but no one's around. Silently screaming I bang my head against the wall. Always an emotion, but how can I explain? How can I explain?" She sang aloud, not seeing to care who heard her.
It's been almost two years since the Stacey St Claire incident shook up her life and months since she was taken away from Eve. Even though she was surrounded by people that cared about her, she still felt lonely. A piece of her would always be in Storybrook with her red headed best friend. Without the girl in her life she felt lost, much like she did before she met Eve after she transferred schools. "Kind of like the scent of a rose with words I can't explain. The same with my pain caught up in emotion. Goes over my head. Goes over my head" She skated down the middle of the street, nearly tramping over anyone in her path. It's not her fault they didn't move.
She had a lot of feelings brewing inside of her, all of them hidden with a tough and bitchy attitude. As much as she tried to, she never got over what happened with Stacey. Daring her friend to jump off of a bridge knowing she died had really fucked her up. It was supposed to be just a game! It was supposed to be fun. No one was supposed to die. It kept her up at night sometimes, not letting her sleep as it played in her head over and over again. It made her want to go find a bridge for herself and just jump. "Love and peace flash through my mind., Pain and hate are all I find. Find no hope in nothing new. Never had a dream come true. Lies and hate and agony. Through my eyes that's all I see"
As she instrumental played, she banged her head along with it and played air drums as she skated towards the apartment building Regina lived in. "So when I look outside my room I see the world, but not the reason. What is done to me is not fair. You call it fair I call it treason. But I don't know what to do. Give me a sign I'll take whatever., But if you want me here I am. Ain't gonna die forever" She jumped off of her board when she heard the building and walked in, still singing her heart out as she walked to the elevator. Another instrumental played as she went up to the door the woman loved in and she jammed out once more.
The doors opened and she walked in, singing the last few lines as she walked towards the door. "Today today; when I can't even smile today. Today today; when I can't even smile today. How will I laugh tomorrow, when I can't even smile today. How will I laugh tomorrow, when I can't even smile today" The music ended and she knocked on the door.