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Ana Steele (newwoman) wrote in freedomtownic,
@ 2017-06-01 04:16:00

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anastasia steele (msanasteele), ~alex vause (alex_vause)

I don't think I'll ever find someone who won't expect me to be their sub.

Fuck those blasted books.

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	sweet_bea 2017-06-01 11:37 pm UTC (link)
	I get the feeling your inner goddess is not pleased. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	newwoman 2017-06-02 12:34 am UTC (link)
	She's definitely pissed. And I am so tired of looking, I'm about to say fuck it and just give up. And I lost Karo.... it's just too much. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	herof0rhire 2017-06-02 12:43 am UTC (link)
	Girl... be strong. There's good people out there. Even up here. You just gotta find 'em is all. Stop looking, too. When someone comes along who deserves you? They'll come after you. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	newwoman 2017-06-02 12:50 am UTC (link)
	Oh believe me, I am done looking. I'm going to focus on my bookstore and just keep my head down. It's never going to happen for me and I'll just have to accept that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	herof0rhire 2017-06-02 12:58 am UTC (link)
	Woman please. Look, I ain't one to sit here and sugar-coat shit. So if I tell you something, you can take it to the bank. You're smart, sexy, and determined. So you had some books reveal some kinky sex shit about you. There's people that have goddamn videos leak of them doing all kinds of fucked up shit. It'll pass. You just gotta trust me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	newwoman 2017-06-02 01:03 am UTC (link)
	Look, first of all, don't call me 'woman'. And second of all, they will never go away. They are out there forever. Nothing ever completely passes. You Google me and you're going go find those and those stupid movies. With that ugly girl they think looks like me. Gross. I don't know you well enough to trust you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	herof0rhire 2017-06-02 01:21 am UTC (link)
	Fair enough. I'm just saying. You need someone with a brain in their head anyway, right? And if they can't understand that your past doesn't dictate your future, then obviously they aren't smart enough for you anyway. Real talk. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	newwoman 2017-06-12 02:16 am UTC (link)
	I'm so annoyed I'm not even sure if I want to be straight anymore. It's the guys that are the grossest about it. I did love Christian, and I'm not saying that I wouldn't take him back, but in the meantime I'm not looking for a man. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	alex_vause 2017-06-08 01:05 pm UTC (link)
	We should get a drink sometime. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	newwoman 2017-06-08 02:30 pm UTC (link)
	So I can fall for you and then you frame me for drugs and then you throw me under the bus and I stay in jail? No thanks. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	alex_vause 2017-06-12 02:02 am UTC (link)
	Well, damn. There goes plan a. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	newwoman 2017-06-12 02:37 am UTC (link)
	It's just proving to me that I shouldn't go out with you, you don't seem to care that you fucked Piper over. She went to jail for you and you didn't clear her name so she could get OUT of jail. I don't even know why she forgave you, that's a total unforgivable thing. Just go and ask someone else out, I'm not putting myself in a position for that to happen. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

alex_vause
2017-06-12 02:51 am UTC (link)

Okay, a) that was a joke and b) where the fuck do you get off judging people for their past mistakes? Also, who the fuck goes out of their way to look into someone’s personal and criminal history before even genuinely talking to them? I sure as shit didn’t go out of my way to read those fucking books before I tried to talk to you.

Fuck me for trying to be nice for a change.

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newwoman
2017-06-12 03:02 am UTC (link)

I didn't go into your history, I watch the show. I watched it before you spoke to me, I didn't go and try to find out about you before you spoke to me. Get over yourself.

And second of all, a mistake is forgetting to sign something in the right place. Keeping information that could get someone out of jail a secret, that's not a mistake. That is a deliberate action. I could care less if you were selling drugs, or whatever, but that was a cruel thing to do. And I'm sure that no one else would call it a "mistake" either.

Read the books, I don't care. I've never even done anything remotely like that. Being someone's sub, (which I ended up not doing, by the way) is not wrong if both parties agree to it. You did a completely heinous thing to someone you were supposed to love and she paid dearly for it.

Excuse me if I have an issue with that.

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alex_vause
2017-06-13 12:01 pm UTC (link)

~~There's a show?~~

You think that you haven't said the same thing that I haven't thought about myself at least a hundred times a day?

I appreciate that that's your opinion of me and fuck, what I did was malicious. While I could never fully make it up to Piper (and believe me if she was here I'd sure as fuck give it a try) I at least like to think that what I'm doing here is a way to make amends for what I've done. Haven't you ever done something that you regret?

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