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Tweak says, "let's garnet!"

Dr. Carly McDonald (dr_mcdonald) wrote in freedomtownic,
@ 2021-04-29 20:40:00

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krista jackson (callmekrista)

God, I feel so lost. I'm right back to where I was before I met Noah. Always managing to find just the right thing to say or do that repels anyone I become interested in.

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	callmekrista 2021-04-30 01:15 am UTC (link)
	Ass. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	dr_mcdonald 2021-04-30 01:25 am UTC (link)
	Seriously! We were getting on so well until I actually had to talk. It's not just you. I always do this. I'm sorry. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	callmekrista 2021-04-30 01:27 am UTC (link)
	I called you an ass because you are assuming that it's your fault. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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dr_mcdonald
2021-04-30 01:31 am UTC (link)

I just... every time I've ever been interested in some, like... really interested in them... as soon as we got to know each other better, I'd lose them. I've always been so into my work that I'm no good trying to talk about other stuff and it shows.

We went out, and I admit, I was more excited than I've been about anything in a long time. And when it kinda fizzled out instead of ending with the fireworks I was hoping for... I just figured it was my fault. Again.

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	Re: PRIVATE callmekrista 2021-04-30 01:36 am UTC (link)
	... Did ya miss the part where I said that I wasn't ready? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: PRIVATE dr_mcdonald 2021-04-30 01:41 am UTC (link)
	No, not at all! That's just... what more people than you realize have told me. Kinda automatically took it as a "it's not you it's me" thing. I'm sorry if I misunderstood. I really do hope, if nothing else, we can still be friends. I really do enjoy your company. And if you ever feel like you are ready? And still want to try again? I'm not going anywhere. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: PRIVATE callmekrista 2021-04-30 01:47 am UTC (link)
	I'm starting to think that there is a chance that I loved Presto harder than you loved Noah and I'm very much not used to expressing emotions. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: PRIVATE dr_mcdonald 2021-04-30 01:48 am UTC (link)
	I think love affects everyone differently, especially losing it. Neither of us are over losing our loves... but maybe we can help each other heal? I'm not the most exciting or interesting person you'll ever meet... but I'm definitely the most loyal and caring. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: PRIVATE callmekrista 2021-04-30 03:15 am UTC (link)
	Well yeah, I really don't want to lose you. I was actually quite upset when you just kinda bailed when I didn't want to make out. It didn't mean that I didn't want you around anymore. I want you in my life, Carly. We need each other. Billy isn't exactly the type to give me the emotional support that I need. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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dr_mcdonald
2021-04-30 03:20 am UTC (link)

That... was definitely just bad timing. It wasn't about making out (god, that's SO not something I put a priority on), it was just that around that time was when I felt our chemistry dissolving. Now that I understand (I honestly didn't know you were still in so much pain), it makes so much more sense now.

Can we try this again? No "date", no expectations... just hang out, talk, see what happens?

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