Maybe it's time for a new name? I'd like to think that's one of the beauties of this place. If you don't feel like what you've been going by is your name, it doesn't have to be. We don't have anything like that in my world. I was just the weird, social outcast until my mom became a sentient zombie.
I think that's the first step. You want to be around people, but you aren't sure if you won't fall into your old ways because that's all you know. You may not be ready yet, but you are definitely on the road to just that.