He could feel his heart speed up when she talked about loving just her. It wasn't until she said that part that his heart skipped a beat and quickened though. It ached mostly but that was more of a feeling than what was physically happening to him. She'd climbed into bed with him though, and all these memories rushed back but most of them started to have holes in them now. The holes were getting worse with the days that passed too. He couldn't even remember the night with Scott, or when Lydia had come to visit him. Just certain segments from each, and they were vanishing fast. He wrote things down before he had the chance to forget them.
"Malia...I don't love anyone else, the way that I love you. I couldn't...ever." It was hard to explain, Malia wasn't his first love, she wasn't that love you get from a long and lasting bond that is unbreakable. She was true though, she was true love he believed. "I do love Scott. I've known him my entire life, and we have..always had each others backs. No matter what..." He trailed knowing that there was a time that Scott didn't have his...but he couldn't remember when or what happened anymore. "I do love him, but it's not...it's not the same way he loves me. I never told him that cause I didn't know how, and I didn't want to hurt him. When we...it was a stupid and impulsive move. I didn't want to think about anything because it was too much. I couldn't breathe. I couldn't see straight, or think. I didn't think and it's no excuse either. Not at all."
His voice trembled while he spoke, his tone was low though he had a pretty good feeling Derek was listening in to make sure nothing bad...or anything really happened for that matter. His hand continued to run through her hair though, it was calming for him anyway. "You though...Malia. I love you, I could never stop loving you, and I feel dead inside because of the fact that I hurt you. I made you...you-- you shifted and I did that to you. I--" His words were choking up in the back of his throat a little. "I love Scott, like my best friend, like my brother...I love you because you..are my world." He smiled softly a little, doing his best to explain it.