I spent pretty much my entire life trying to prove myself to her, to get a look from her. To be noticed, and I got nothing. Ever, if not less than nothing.
I started to make peace with it. It took me till my Senior year of high school to make peace with the fact that it was just never going to happen. We became best friends.
Now..all of the sudden, because we're here or whatever now she has feelings for me? I'm supposed to just be okay that it took being not somewhere anyone knows us....to want to maybe try and see me for me?
Call me a ...whatever, but it hurts more than it feels good.