Ben Solo (![[info]](https://www.insanejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} son_of_solo) wrote in ![[info]](https://www.insanejournal.com/img/community.gif){kind=small} freedomtownic,@ 2020-02-02 19:20:00 |
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When: Last night
What: Deep thoughts turn into song
Rating: Low
Status: Closed, complete
Ben hadn't been sure what to expect of his meeting with Zorii Bliss. The woman, who he barely knew, was a known spice runner and bounty hunter, with little in the way of allegiance to anyone or anything. Somehow though... he found her almost TOO easy to talk to. As they conversed, he found himself telling her about himself, about his past... things he hadn't spoken to anyone about in years, if at all.
The one thing he couldn't bring himself to discuss, however... was the one thing he still couldn't emotionally deal with. He'd come to terms with what he'd done to his father. With how his mother gave her very life just to help bring him back to the light. He'd never truly forgive himself for these things... but he'd come to terms with them.
But Rey... he could barely think about her without breaking apart. She'd seen the best in him, even when he was at his worst. She'd saved his life, when she had every right to let him die. She had become one with him, mind and soul. He'd fallen in love with her, even though he barely knew what love WAS.
All that Rey had done for him.... all she had done for the entire galaxy... it was all for nothing, in the end. She'd saved him. She'd rebelled against her very blood and destroyed Sheev Palpatine once and for all. She was something he could never be: a hero. And now he was something SHE could not be: alive.
He was clearly deep in thought as he walked through Mos Eisley, as even with his raw power in The Force, he was caught totally unaware by one of those damned flying cupid cherubs, who shot him in the bicep with one of their seemingly harmless little arrows. Nor did he really notice when, inexplicably, his thoughts began to be verbalized.... via singing.
"Can you hear me say your name forever?
Can you see me longing for you forever?"
As he walked, he didn't even notice that, for some reason, there was an Aqualish playing a piano out in the middle of the street, matching his words with music.
"Would you let me touch your soul forever?
Can you see me longing for you forever, forever?"
He marched through town, the wind blowing through his hair and clothing. His thoughts could not deviate from the beautiful young Jedi who had given everything to bring peace back not only to the galaxy, but to his soul.
"I know the light grows darker down below
But in your eyes it's gone before you know
This is the moment of just letting go
She said, if you had life eternal"
He knew life was not fair. Or merciful. But he knew, deep down inside, that something had gone wrong. That Rey was NOT the one who was supposed to die. His heart ached on levels he hadn't been aware that it could, just thinking about the fact that he continued his broken, cruel existence while one as good and strong as her was snuffed out.
"Can you hear me say your name forever?
Can you see me longing for you forever, forever?
Would you let me touch your soul forever?
Can you see me longing for you forever, forever?"
As he continued to walk, a Tusken and a Rodian began to walk behind him.... each playing a guitar? This was turning into a full-blown musical number, and Ben was completely oblivious to it.
His focus was instead on those last moments. When he held her in his arms, channeling all of his Force energy into her, trying to use their status as a dyad in the Force to drain his own life into her. To sacrifice himself so that she might live.
"We dance once more
I feel your hands are cold
Within your heart, a story to be told"
Stopping as he approached the speeder he'd rented, he placed one foot against the side of it, looking to the skies.
"This is the moment of just letting go
This is the moment of just letting go"
The music began to swell, matching the dramatic flair he'd always managed to personify without trying. His grief, his guilt... it all spilled forth as he reached the crescendo of the song, his heartbreak audible in his every word.
"Can you hear me say your name forever?
Can you see me longing for you forever, forever?
Would you let me touch your soul forever?
Can you see me longing for you forever and ever?"
"Forever, forever, forever (forever, forever, forever)
Forever, forever, forever (forever, forever, forever)
Forever, forever, forever (forever, forever, forever)
Forever, forever, forever (forever, forever, forever)
Forever, forever, forever (forever, forever, forever)
Forever, forever, forever (forever, forever, forever)
If you had life eternal?"
(Song: "Life Eternal", by Ghost https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lrdmIqO