I do not think that is selfish at all. I sometimes wonder if I will ever find another love like I once had back home. Except he was too good for me. He was a pastor, genuinely good, unconditionally good.
That is so sad. But I am glad for you that the gem brought you back. That is sort of what happened with my brother, who passed away when he was 8. And thank goodness he does not have a mobile device and will not see this to scare him.
Is Tifa and the kids your family? I am here with my sister and my brother and nephew.
I have not met my true love yet. Just a strong like. But at least you experienced love oncce.
But you are far from selfish. Everyone deserves love.