Sweetheart, no. I basically set myself up for hurting.
I don't believe in holding anything back from people I care about. So... here's how it is.
I've never been in a real, committed relationship before. One that I was entirely invested in emotionally. I never even was really AFTER such a thing.
So imagine how badly it messed with my head when I met you, and instantly wanted exactly that. To this day, I have no idea what exactly happened, but part of me fell deeply in love with you the first time we talked.
Now, I'm a rational person. And I know that blurting that out, or even worse, expecting someone ELSE to feel that way, is utterly daft. But I know that in spite of that, I still came on very strong. And I wouldn't have been surprised if you had walked away for good. I'm just grateful you didn't.