Freedomtown IC

[Maya]
How are you holding up today, Mothers Day, you know. Happy Mothers Day anyway, babe. I am honored that you are the mother to our children.

Happy Mothers Day to my beautiful wife and mother of my children. I love you, wifey. Brooke you are the best thing to happen to me.

Happy Mother's Day, mom. Wherever you are right now... I hope you remember me.

Because god knows in a few hours I'm gonna be so fucking bombed that I won't be able to remember anyone.

Just wanted to take a moment out of the afternoon to wish a very Happy Mother's Day to my mom, best friend, and role model - the beeeeeeeeeeeeeee-YOO-tiful Dr. April Kepner!

Love you Mommy!!! Anything Bucky and I can do for you today?

Wow. Everything always kinda happens at once, doesn't it?

I have a lot of changes in my life coming up extremely soon, but most of them I can't quite talk about just yet.

But one big one? Once Rachelle has her baby, she said that she wants to focus more on being a mom and getting back into acting. Meaning A Woman Scorned is going to be more of a part-time project. I'll always be there for Chelle when she wants to do an album, but with her blessing, I've agreed to become the new drummer for Eternal Embrace, effective immediately.

I've always been extremely fond of Kaitlyn Crowe, and I've wanted to work with her for a while now. This is going to be an exciting and fun new time for me, and I can't wait to get started.

Thanks again to Rachelle for supporting me, for saving me, and for always being there for me, and to Kaitlyn for giving me this new opportunity.

Gotta love the conversation I had with Peter Quill yesterday at the Mos Eisley Cantina:

Quill: "Alright, Sammy-Boy. I guess you're wondering why I asked you to come here."

Me: "Honestly, Star-Lord, sir... I have no idea."

Quill: "You just turned 18! Time to take you out for drinks like a man!"

Me: ".....Mr. Quill? That's 21. I'm not old enough to legally drink yet."

Quill: "Wait. Seriously?"

Me: "Yep."

Quill: "................well shit."

So, apparently today's a holiday in this world dedicated to mothers. I wish all words had something like that, to be honest.

It's no secret that mothers have played a big part in my life. My own mother, Shmi, was the greatest woman I've ever known. She loved me unconditionally, and did her best to always give me the best life possible, even when we were slaves on Tattooine. Not being able to save her life still haunts me to this day.

And of course, there's Padme. My everything, and the mother of my children. No disrespect meant to being a Jedi, but being loved by Padme is the most important thing in my life, and the thing I take the most pride in.

So, Happy Mother's Day to all of you out there who have children and do your best for them every day.

Is it normal to randomly feel lonely enough that you miss a seriously toxic ex?

Because I found myself thinking about Adrianna last night, and she was damn near a stalker.

Ok, I can admit when I'm wrong.

I officially take back any snarky comment I ever made about people who talk about how happy they are dating someone. I've smiled more in the last few days than I have in the last 16 years.

It's been a while, journal...

Today's Mother's Day, and seeing everyone wishing everyone else a happy one of those, it got me thinking... I never got to be a mom back where I came from. I was never ready to be one. I was never in the right headspace to truly be a parent.

To be blunt, I'm still not ready right now either before you get any ideas, Jenny! :P. My current situation isn't enough to support that, but I feel like it's a far more attainable goal here eventually... and I want that with Jenny. Because Jenny's my everything. I don't know if I'd be so ready to admit that here without her.

In fact, I think I'd still be the scared girl I was when I was sucked into this place without Jenny. But I don't have to play hypotheticals about that. Because she's here. And she'd make an amazing mother. I know she would. Can't you tell I'm in love? XP

Speaking of Mother's Day, my and Annie's mom Jodie wasn't perfect. She got around in her earlier years. She and my biological Dad were both druggies before they had me and Annie, which makes me feel bad for Michael that he didn't get to see what true parents looked like until it was too late. But by the time me and Annie were into elementary school, she had become a true parent to us.

I love and miss that woman every day she crosses my mind. She looked exactly like Princess Leia, and I bet Jenny would have loved her just for that. And Jodie would have loved Jenny, too. Like how she loved my first girlfriend Stacy.

I hope when the time comes that me and Jenny get to be parents that we're like Jodie without the previous baggage.

I love and miss you, Jodie Elena Calico-Montes.