Freedomtown IC

All I've done is sit around the house and sulk since Victoire left.

Sure, I've had some guests (HI KATIEEEE!), and worked on my music some... but there was lots of sulking involved at all times. Major sulkage.

But I'm supposed to be a mom, a friend, and a rock star, darnit! I can be sad all I want, but I gotta at least try to get out there and have some fun.

If anyone's heading to Ryze tonight, I'm gonna skip the VIP section tonight and mingle. So, if you're gonna be there and wanna say hi, I'm not hard to find!

I know a lot of you don't really know me well yet, but I'd really appreciate some honest advice/opinions here.

I feel like a lousy person right now.

This isn't me being some emo AF teenager, either.

I have SO much good in my life. I have parents that are pulling in stupid money and that love me unconditionally. I've managed to (rather quickly) make a small but very close circle of friends. I even found a job already.

But I'm still lonely. I want that special someone, you know? Someone who'll have fun with me, but also cuddle, hold hands, all that good stuff.

And I feel like a lousy person, because I have SO much, yet I'm here whining about what I don't have.

[Private to Ron Weasley]

Would it be alright for me to go shopping with Kara on Friday after classes and then stay over at her house?

Private to Iris Lewis
MOM. I need you and Dad to stay out as late as you can tomorrow. I have a sorta-date with someone I've got a huuuuge crush on. I need time to make as good an impression as I can.


Private to Brynn Lewis
Sis!!! 911 dating emergency!

Day eighteen.

There's just not been too much to report recently, much as I hate to say it. It's weird, because while the first two weeks were pretty wild, this third week hasn't been anywhere near as wild. I'm glad for that kinda, because that means this whole situation is starting to become normalized to me. But I'd be lying if I didn't say that for example, it was kinda fun being mistaken for Jyn Erso even after my surgery.

But I want Beatriz to work here, too. I know it's not necessarily what she wants to do, but she'd have a friend here to work with. Plus that way, I can have half of my four besties with me at work. Three if Mouse drops by with her band... and Jenny would complete the set should either said friends want to come by to my apartment, or should Jenny drop by while we're all on the clock.

I dunno, I'm just kinda spitballing.

If the past few months haven't been crazy enough, now I'm on a different planet... in an entirely different reality?

That is totally cool, but I think that I'm totally alone here. I don't recognize any of the names on this list. What sucks is that I'm only fifteen, so I don't have anyone to take care of me now.

So if there's anyone with a little extra space, I'm Courtney... and I recently became a superhero.

I am so happy with the photoshoot I had yesterday. I'm going to be featured in Shred, a music and pop-culture magazine here on Galador, and they wanted to do a shoot. It made me feel good about myself in a time when I desperately needed it.

( Tell me what you think? )