I have done things. Things I can not imagine I could do. I do not have memory of such activities, only the telling of the tale. Ser Jorah once told me that I had a gentle heart, I hope he can still see it.
Back at home, I killed innocent men, women and children with dragon fire in a fit of madness, sorrow, I'm not quite sure what.
This place has returned Ser Jorah and my dragons. I hope Missandei appears. But I digress, I have become what I most feared, a mad Queen. At least, I know this is possible and I will take measures to ensure this does not happen again.
I have spent hours in meditation over this. Looking in the mirror is difficult. I can not undo what I have done. I am deeply sorry for my transgressions. I... .