I can see why you'd say that. I didn't like this place at first. I was pulled away from my clan. I had responsibilities, no, I'd call them duties to my clan. And then it brought Rupert and Dawn here. Faith was here first. Having my 'family' here has made all the difference. I had to learn to get rid of all my guilt, since I can't help being here. It's taken awhile but I have forgotten my guilt and am grateful for every morning here.
Having been in a hell, which I'm guessing was your realm, would give one a totally different perspective. How did you manage in that world? From what you've said so far it sounds like a hell dimension.