Private to Tori Crowe
Look, I know that we don't know each other, but I thought that I'd make something clear. Partly because I can't ever seem to get on the same page with Kat.
I let her go. I want her to be happy. I just hate the fact that she's acting like some evil person that broke up with her when we were never actually together. I knew that I simply can't be what she wants or deserves, and I wasn't about to let her waste her life away on a girl that she barely knows.
I guess that it's my bad that I thought that I could joke about my feelings when I thought that I had previously made it clear that I actually had them. I should have known better, though. The last time I tried letting her know that I did like her, but I was in no place emotionally to be in a relationship, she immediately broke things off with another great girl and sent her down a road where months later, she's still horribly broken.
I don't want that to happen with you, though. I just want to make things clear right here and now that I am not interested in actually going for something with Kat. Let alone anyone else. I need some time to work on me before I go down that road at all. I just want it to be perfectly clear that I am not trying to step on your toes and take her away from you. That is the last thing that I want to do. I want her to be with you. I want her to be happy.
... I just can't deny that after saying all of that, it stung a little to see her jump into things with you so quickly after I finally broke down and told her exactly how I felt and let her go. I know that you weren't around for it, but she had been pursuing me for like a year and she recently helped me through the death of my second mom. I thought that we had become super close friends, but she's been ignoring me basically ever since you came around. So I'm not hurting over the loss of a potential romantic relationship, I'm hurting over the fact that my friend seemingly forgot about me.
Let me just say that I in no way blame you for any of this. I'm just giving you my side of the story because I feel like you deserve to know.