So try. It's that simple. If you just keep moving through life like this, are you really honoring the memory of the people that died so that you could make it to this point?
As for that last part... I don't even know what to say. YOU'RE the one who told ME you weren't interested in me like that. YOU friend-zoned ME.
And now I found someone who sees me the way I wanted you to see me. She thinks I'm beautiful. She's protective of me. She doesn't care how clingy or weird I act, because she likes me for exactly who I am.