I'll tell you what's going on if you don't tell Mal. I know the two of you are best friends but I'd also like to consider us friends as well. I'm just not the same person as I used to be. I'm different here than I was back home.
I didn't feel the same way anymore like I did back home. I didn't want to lead Mal on. I felt like we weren't really connecting like we did back home. This place is different. Am I making sense?