I know exactly what you mean about the loving someone and not being able to give up hope. Even when things get really bad you can't give up on that person, I get that.
Do you know if he feels the same at all or have you never spoken about it? Sorry, that's personal so don't feel like you have to answer me if you don't want to. That is exactly how I feel about Grant, I couldn't imagine my life without him and just thinking about it as a possibility upsets me. I'm glad I found my person too. It is sad, especially when they're good people and deserve happiness.