April/Harriet
You have a calling, Harriet and it's not because of me or your father or even your grandmother. You were given a gift to help the sick and injured. I knew from the day you were born that you were meant to do great and wonderful things.
If being a doctor is truly what you want, you need to be the doctor you want to be and not the doctor that you think you should be or the doctor that someone else tells you that you need to be.
If you don't want to be a doctor or if you need more time away to re-assess, that's perfectly fine as well.