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Katniss Everdeen (skilledhunter) wrote in freedomtownic,
@ 2018-11-12 19:51:00

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~katniss everdeen, ~regina mills (mostresilient)

private to Regina.. or mom?
Remember the boy that's coming to live with us.. my friend Peeta? Can I ask you for advice on something?

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	mostresilient 2018-11-13 02:17 am UTC (link)
	I remember. And of course you can, sweetheart. What's on your mind? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	skilledhunter 2018-11-13 02:20 am UTC (link)
	I wasn't sure if you liked it if I called you mom. I don't have a close relationship with my mother back home. So.. I really like Peeta.. our relationship was kind of awkward and forced back home because of what we had to do. After getting to know him.. I think my feelings towards him are different. Just not sure how to deal with them. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

mostresilient
2018-11-13 02:48 am UTC (link)

When I was your age I didn't have a close relationship with my mother either. So, I can relate and I have no problem with you calling me mom. Being a mother is one of the jobs that I love the most. I just don't want you to feel like you have to call me mom because some of the other children do.

There is nothing wrong with being confused on how to deal with your feelings for someone. It's something that we all struggle with no matter what age we are.

Are you afraid that Peeta doesn't feel the same?

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skilledhunter
2018-11-13 03:05 am UTC (link)

My mother shut herself off from my sister and I after my father died. I understand about grief.. but it made us almost starve to death. I want to call you mom it feels right to me.

I know Peeta feels the same way. He's told me. I just don't want him thinking that I'm someone I'm not later on. I know what I feel I'm just afraid to return them. I don't want to lose him either if it didn't work out or something.

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mostresilient
2018-11-13 03:30 am UTC (link)

I'm sorry you had to go through that. If ever calling me mom doesn't feel right don't worry about whether or not it will hurt my feelings. You and your sister if she wants to can call me it for however long you feel comfortable doing so.

When I was your age I had those very same fears. One of my only friends and the person I knew I could trust the most was our families stable boy. When I began to have feelings for him I was afraid. One, because I knew if my mother found out she wouldn't be pleased. And two, because I didn't want to lose the only friend that I had. It lead to me distancing myself from Daniel until he finally confronted me about it. That day he taught me that a true friend is one who will never abandon you by choice. That was also the day that Daniel taught me that life isn't worth living unless you take risks.

So, I did. My fears of losing his friendship never quite went away but I can truthfully say that I don't regret taking that chance. Now, I can't tell you what to do and I'd never try to. However, what I can do is suggest that you talk about your fears with Peeta. Let him know that your conflicted about what your feelings are and that you're worried you'll lose him as a friend.

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skilledhunter
2018-11-13 03:39 am UTC (link)

It's okay. This place will be better for all three of us in the long run. I don't have to fight to the death here like I did back home. That's a story I'll need to tell you and Robin eventually. My sister and I will call you that since we feel really safe at your home.

We seem to be similar with the way we feel. You're with Robin though here right? What happened to Daniel? Sorry I have a lot of questions and I'm a bit curious. Sorry if it's also hard to talk about.

I do need to take a risk with him. He means a lot to me. Talking about my fears would work and he would understand them I think.. I don't want to lose him at all. I'll just have to see what happens.

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mostresilient
2018-11-13 03:58 am UTC (link)

Whenever you are ready to tell us the story about why you needed to fight to the death we'll be ready.

Never apologize for asking questions. I'm at a point in my life where I hope that my life experiences can be of help to others. So, I don't mind sharing. One day I'll tell you the full story of what happened to Daniel. For now I'll simply say that he died before we were able to run away together. Losing Daniel broke my heart and I never really loved another again. That is, until Robin came into my life. He along with my son Henry taught me how to love again.

Robin and I will be here for you through all of this.

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skilledhunter
2018-11-13 02:07 pm UTC (link)

I'll do a conversation with the both of you. I'm still traumatized over the fact that I had to do it. But, I did it so Prim didn't have to.

He passed away? That's really sad and I'm sorry that happened to you. I can understand that. You and Robin seem perfect for each other. I met Henry the other night he seems really nice.

That's what I didn't want to happen with Peeta during the games. I couldn't let him die. I think that's when I know my feelings were different towards him. At the end we both had to kill each other so one of us could win. I didn't let that happen. It's complicated.

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