Nancy (nancewheeler) wrote in freedomtownic, @ 2018-10-14 01:36:00 |
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Entry tags: | nancy wheeler (nancewheeler) |
(Posted Saturday Morning - I was sleeping.)
[Filtered to Steve Harrington]
I know that we haven't spent much time together since you arrived on Galador, but I guess that we're just going through that weird post-breakup avoidance. At the same time, it's been more than long enough for me. My feelings for Barb had been hindering me for so long. What made it worse is that I refused to see it for what it was. Seeing her again really helped me work through everything. Even to the point where I stopped caring whether Jonathan ended up showing up here or not. I've been here nearly a year and there's no one special in my life. I confessed my feelings to Barb while she was still here and it only caused her to run off and get serious with another girl. My job as personal assistant to the princess really only keeps me satisfied to a point. I've done a lot of self-discovery since I have been here, but I feel like there is still a long way for me to go. I'm just to the point where I don't know what direction to go into next, and I fear I may never know.
I still don't know how I feel about you. Not that I know how I feel about myself. I hope that after all of the chaos is over, we get to spend more time with each other. I feel like our whole relationship was hindered by my guilt over what happened to Barb, and then my obsession with getting justice for what happened to her completely took over later. You deserved better.