DEREK.
People being at your throat is people being at each other's throat. Until you walk past those gates for good, you're a part of this community. If you don't want to act like it then don't, I'm not going to force you and I'd get why you wouldn't want to, but in my eyes, you are. If you're stepping down from defense then you're another civilian who needs to be looked out for. For you, there's you and then there's them. For me, you are them. It counts. I'm not saying everybody has to get along. But I am saying that nobody around here should get attacked.
Don't say that to me right now, man I'm already stressed, people are dead, I don't Well let me know when you decide. The part of me that's me and a defense leader and someone who considers you as a good person wants to say that you're welcome back here any time. The part of me who's Caitlin's best friend and has personally seen her violently lose the past two men that she's loved, both because of me, want's to say that if you leave, don't come back. But I think that part just exists because I'm stressed and annoyed and my head is killing me.
You're a good guy, Derek. You might feel like you can handle yourself out there just as well as you can in here and you're probably right as of right now. But I'm putting these new rules into place unless someone can explain to me why training and getting our shit together is a bad idea, so down the road, this place is going to be a lot safer than out there ever will be. Try to keep that in mind before making any decisions. You don't need to like Steve. You don't have to trust him, either, I'd get it if you didn't. I won't even tell you that you can trust me, I'm not going to pretend that people haven't died on my watch. But I can tell you that I've done everything I possibly can to make sure that doesn't happen. Sometimes I'm not fast enough or good enough. But I try, for what it's worth.