Malia
I know this is really hard for you to understand because you've been beating yourself up about it for so long. I know that it was you who did it, I know that you remember bits and pieces of it. But when you have something inside of you that you can't control, something that literally overpowers you where you can't think clearly and you can't stop yourself from just feeling so angry, you can't blame yourself for that. You could if you weren't trying to fix it. But you are. You're trying to get better so that doesn't happen again. I would tell you if you were at fault, Malia, I would be honest with you, but you're not. It's something that you're going to have to carry for the rest of your life and it's tragic but sometimes horrible things happen that we can't control.
I know you will. I don't talk about the past a lot. Sometimes I feel like it's easier just to keep moving forward.