I'm sorry about your mom and your brother. I'm not sorry about your dad. Wait, that's probably a bad thing to say. But it's true. I'm not sorry he's gone and can't hurt you anymore.
I'm better on my own too. I really really really didn't want to be changed back. I mean...I don't want to face that, you know? I was happy as a coyote and I didn't have to look at my face in the mirror and know that I killed my mom and Becky. I didn't have to tell my dad that. And then when I tried, he thought I was crazy. That's why he's sending me to Eichen House. Because he thinks I'm crazy. I didn't want to be human again, I didn't. It was lonely but it was safe and I'm okay on my own too. On my own I don't have to worry about all the things I worry about here.
Although...I did miss being touched by other people.
I should have been able to control it. And they're dead because of me, or my eyes wouldn't have turned blue. I want to be a good person but I think I still have a ways to go.