Lydia
I missed you too. I've thought about you a lot, Lydia. I'm sorry I wasn't there after... what happened, I just couldn't be. I couldn't look at you. I couldn't look at Scott. It hurt too much, I felt like I had nothing there anymore. Dad was dead, Derek separated himself from me, and after what All she said when when she was dying before she was gone, I couldn't be around Scott. It's not his fault. I just couldn't do it.
I believe it. Things over in France aren't much better but I've been taking care of it all myself.