Mnemosyne | Nora Moss (recalled) wrote in forgotten_gods, @ 2010-04-28 19:02:00 |
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Heartbreak was an interesting word. It signified the literal action of a heart breaking into two, but there was no medical proof that they could really do so. And yet it could. Perhaps not literally, but figuratively. "Breaking" was too light, too easy a word to describe the action of her heart clenching so viciously in her chest, threatening to shatter into countless shards, and then stilling, like the calm after a storm.
Only to dissolve into pieces that she felt she could clench between her fingers, only to cut herself with the sharp edges and bleed out the rest of her agony. Watch the red drip to the floor and infest the tiling with dread with a misery that transcended generations and encompassed her so completely that breathing seemed secondary.
Anger dwindled, and replaced itself with an unhappiness so profound that the sob that bubbled up her throat and ripped itself from her lips was inhuman. Tears were like acid. The blood was cold between her fingertips, the stinging in the cuts a lesser priority than spilling agony onto the kitchen floor.
Mnemosyne sat and emptied out the contents of heart, the sounds of her crying echoing in the quiet.
She was uncertain when her mother wrapped her up in her arms. It could have been seconds, or minutes. Hours. In reality, it had only taken less than twenty seconds for Gaia to envelop her into an embrace that was so tight, she thought she would break apart at the contact. She felt like a little girl. Not a mother, not a full grown woman, but a tiny child.
If there was anything she did not feel like, it was whole.
Pieces of her lay abandoned on the floor at their knees, and too tired to collect them, she cried in her mother's arms, her own weak and unmoving. This was all that she wanted, to gather her own girls against her chest like this. And yet now the role had been reversed, and it was instead Mnemosyne in her own mother's arms like a small child.
This was not heartbreak.
This was her heart giving its last breath.
Necrosis.