He didn't know how those like Jamie and Karl could just sit around and accept it. Or even wanted it to be that way. Maybe he really was just different from them - different in that he only ever saw things from the perspective of every other citizen roaming this country. He wasn't naive enough to believe that one day he would disappear from the world, but it seemed like what he wanted went against his very existence, and that of the gods like him.
"If it wasn't for our obligation to these people I'd prefer to be an ignorant office worker out in the middle of nowhere just wasting this life away."