Who: Rave and Raven What: This is why you need to learn to turn off the computer When: Wednesday Night Where: Phone call/The Apartment Rating: Pg-13, Sappy fluff, mention of drug use. Status: Complete (AIM Log)
Raven: *getting home, he realizes quickly that Rave isn't there. Checking around for a note, he flips on the computer, noticing that she was still logged in and had written something in her journal. Concerned, he picked up his phone and dialed her number*
Rave: *Answers her cell on the fourth ring, clearly in the bathroom at a club* Hey baby!
Raven: *relief is clear in his voice* Hey, you weren't here. Is everything alright, are you working?
Rave: No, not working. *Clearly ignoring the rest*
Raven: *not going to be mislead that easily* Ah, well are you feeling alright? I kind of thought we could work on packing and making sure we have everything for Friday's trip. I have tomorrow off.
Rave: Um.. I'm ok.. *For now, anyway..* That's great *She tried to sound enthused*
Raven: *his eyes narrow but he decides not to call her on the obvious lie* So are you out with friends, do you want me to come meet you?
Rave: I haven't.. run into.. anyone yet.. but I just got here so...
Raven: How long are you going to be out for, I can wait up.
Rave: Um...
Raven: Or you could come home, and we can talk about what's bothering you.
Rave: What do you mean?
Raven: You need to learn to shut down the computer when you're done with it.
Rave: .... Fuck.
Raven: Maybe if you're good when you get home.
Raven: You know, we can put off the Disney trip if you're not feeling up to it. I had a surprise for you, but we don't need to be in Disney for me to give it to you.
Rave: *club noise getting louder, but moving, then relative silence, and street noises. The address to the apartment is given a few moments later. She doesn't know what to say, so she doesn't really say anything at all.* ...how much of it did you read?
Raven: I stopped after seeing that you're feeling down again and were having trouble being excited about the trip. Not too far. *his tone is truthful, he actually did stop as soon as soon as he was sure it was something he might be able to help.*
Rave: ..... *a long pause, before a soft sigh* If you're going to read it, read the whole thing.
Raven: *silence for a few moments* Alright then.
Rave: *Waits*
Raven: ...I'm sorry. Did you find any drugs, then?
Rave: No..
Raven: Ah, well I have some peyote I've been saving if you like.
Rave: ...Are you mad at me?
Raven: *sighing softly, one can imagine him pinching the bridge of his nose* No, I'm not. I just wish you felt like you could talk to me about these things.
Rave: I.. can't.
Rave: *pays cabbie. Crackle as she enters the building and steps into the elevator..*
Raven: Why not?
Rave: *hangs up as she opens the door* Because this is what you want, and that would just be really selfish of me.
Raven: *folding his phone shut as he stands* That's not true. I want many things, and being known for my comedy isn't as important as keeping you alive. Besides, there are other ways for me to get my name out there.
Rave: But it's what you love, and you're finally getting there.. and I can't take that from you..
Raven: I could easily go back to being an EMT and then make youtube movies or something, still perform my stand-up on weekends.
Rave: But it's SNL..
Rave: It's big.. It's important..
Raven: Yeah, it's not like I'm actually performing there, just writing.
Rave: But..
Raven: Besides, they have a department called digital shorts, where they shoot little movies or videos. I put my name in for a transfer there, then I only need to be in the office one or two days a week to pitch ideas and drop off a script.
Rave: *frowns.. looks down and plays with her phone*
Raven: I want to find a compromise, if I get that position would it help?
Rave: *shrugs, chewing at her lower lip* I don't know..
Rave: It doesn't.. fix anything else.
Raven: *considers this* We could work on that. I can learn to live in the moment.
Raven: We can start coming up with ways to revive your genre.
Rave: And when I'm gone?
Raven: If that happens, then I'll do everything I can to honor you. I'll never forget and I'll make sure others won't.
Raven: *suddenly inspired* Shit, I'll talk to Coyote, Iktomi, Lela, and Onatah and we'll throw you a party. An old-fashioned Native party. We'll invite Peyote, and anyone else who wants to celebrate you. I'll get you back.
Rave: *Still looks sad* Raven..
Raven: *looks slightly manic* Rave, I'll do everything I can for you.
Rave: I know.. *moves over to take his hands, and kiss his fingers softly* I know.. But.. you can't single-handedly.. You know you can't.. *Kisses again, tears forming*
Raven: I know, that doesn't mean I won't try. *he kisses her softly on the forehead* We could travel around finding raves for you, I have money in savings I could get so I don't have to work.
Raven: If picking get slim we can hit up anime conventions!
Rave: *sighs softly as the tears slide down her cheeks and run her makeup* It's not the parties alone.. it's the lifestyle, the vibe. The parties are changing to, little by little, losing what made me.. me. *She looks up into his eyes* I.. Raven.. I don't know what to do..
Raven: Can you change with them? *he uses his thumbs to gently brush away her tears* We all have to adapt sometime, but there has to be enough to keep you...here, right?
Rave: *Swallows hard and looks away, to the posters on the walls, to the kandi and teddys and everything that was part of her scene, once. Now quaint novelties* I'm.. not sure I want to..
Raven: Oh. *he pauses, following her gaze* Whatever you decide to do, I'll support you.
Rave: *Takes his wrists gently, turning to kiss his palms, each individually* I'm sorry.. I'm so sorry.
Raven: *watching her, he smiles softly* You have nothing to apologize for. We should enjoy the time we have.
Rave: *looks up again* No matter what I do, you're going to end up hurting.. *she reaches to touch his face* I never wanted that.
Raven: *he laughs softly* Everybody hurts, I'd rather it be about something worthwhile instead of over something ridiculous. *he wraps his arms around her* Let's just pretend it'll never happen.
Rave: *nods and tucks in against his chest* I'm sorry.
Raven: *snuggling her close* Please, stop apologizing and let us make the most of this.
Rave: *Sighs softly, sniffles*
Raven: *rests his chin on top of her head You can cry now, but there will be no tears in Disney unless they're happy tears.
Rave: What if I get really, really sunburnt?
Raven: That's different. Then we'll cry.
Raven: Though we'll wear our mouse ear hats with our names on it while we do.
Rave: *burst out, half sob, half laughter. Her arms tighten up around him*
Raven: *grinning, as he knows she's feeling a little better* Oh, I promised Charybdis we'd take a picture with the Mouse, too.
Rave: Can you quit SNL.. if.. um.. they don't transfer you?
Raven: I was already considering it, when I read your post.
Rave: *nods a little and holds closer* I just... *She trails off*
Raven: *shaking his head* You don't need to explain, everyone can be selfish, once in a while.
Rave: *nods again and goes quiet.* I love you..
Raven: *smirks just slightly* I know. I love you too.
Rave: *relaxes against him, chewing lightly on her lower lip. She feels like a weight's been lifted off her chest, now*
Raven: I think we need a nice relaxing bath, and then to be lazy with junk food. Or, whatever you think is best. We still have that peyote.
Rave: I.. I was honestly looking for something harder tonight. But the rest I totally agree with.
Raven: Ah, well maybe we can find some of that, still.
Rave: *looks up* Would you do it with me?
Raven: Sure, I don't mind losing control every once in a while.
Rave: *frowns a little.* I can't find any good blotters anymore.. Something's gone wrong with the local supply *She eases away and moves to dig out her stash.* I do have Ketamine though..
Raven: Ah, I've... never done that before but we've got all of tomorrow to recover.
Kat: Rave: It's alright, but I suggest we eat and take our bath first before we partake. *She moves to set it down on the coffee table, a small vial of white powder, before moving back into his arms*
Raven: What would you like to eat, then? I have some leftover Thai from my lunch, but I'll make or get you anything.
Rave: Chicken lo mein and sesame chicken. *nods a little*
Raven: I'll go pick it up for you. Will you be here when I get back?
Rave: *nods and reaches up on tip toes to kiss him* I will. I'm just going to get started on that bath, I think.
Raven: Alright, save some space for me to join you though.
Rave: Unless I grow another foot in the next hour, I doubt there'll be a problem. *She smiles*
Raven: *he laughs* You have a good point. So chicken lo mein and sesame chicken, anything else?
Raven: Pork mein feng?
Raven: I'll get some of that too, and extra fortune cookies.
Rave: *smiles and hugs him again*
Raven: *kisses her, rubbing her back* You and me against the world, baby.
Rave: Always has been..
Raven: That's right.
Rave: *nuzzles his collarbone and sighs, before slipping away, headed toward the bathroom, ditching her boots on the way* Food, go!
Raven: *he sighs happily, nodding as he dashes for the door* I'll be back quickly.
Rave: *wiggles her fingers, half naked by time she reaches the bathroom to go fill the tub.*