It all clicked in that instant. Nihilism. That was the cause of the disconnect and the apathy. Nihilism's power over his lover, Nihilism's influence and in that moment, Adonis made up his mind to make damned sure College was never going to interact with that asshole ever, ever again. He tensed, pulled back, sat up, eyes filled with hurt as he reached up to touch the pendant on his neck briefly before pulling his fingers away as if they had been burned. "You and Nihilism what?" He asked in a shaky, hurting, disbelieving voice, already preparing to bring tears to his eyes for when College confirmed what he already knew.