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Olivia's got to win (gottowin) wrote in flippedrpg,
@ 2012-11-03 21:49:00

Entry tags:

ch: swap: fred weasley, ch: swap: olivia wood, p: ari, p: lisa

Who: Olivia and Freddy ^swap
Where: By the pier.
When: Tonight.
What: Its going down.
Rating/Status: Likely high/Incomplete.

It had been one helluva day and Olivia felt more exhausted by reading the Weasley arguments than she had in years. Had they every right to feel as they did? Olivia was sure of it, but she was never one to say nobody should feel anything than what they actually felt. After scrounging clothes together from what Captain Epsilon offered, Olivia just sat there and read over everyone's words. A lot of people had been taken and very few brought back and she was certain she was the last person anyone wanted to see, or at least it seemed.

She fought back tears, keeping her answers short with Charlie as she had no idea how to tackle that one. There was something here but whatever it was, it was never spoken of. Olivia never felt she had to and was now kicking herself in her arse for not saying anything at all. No. This time it was different and far more different than anyone could imagine.

Much less Freddy.

Had Olivia missed her? Every day. With memories flooding back as soon as she arrived, Olivia was sick to her stomach. She had everyone here. She had them all and never spent as much time with them as she should have, which also included Charlie. When everyone thought they were together, more often than not, they weren't. He liked his space. She liked her training.

Would she take the bullying over paper? No. If Freddy felt this strongly and this pissed off at Olivia, she wanted to see it in person. Part of her felt she was angry that so many of Freddy's family was taken away. The other part knew to some degree, Freddy was right, but Freddy assumed as well.

Olivia stood at the pier, looking older than she had once before but the eyes remained the same. She kept her gaze to the sea, taking deep breaths to not only calm her nerves but to keep the tears back.

Ever so slowly, the place Olivia once loved, she began to hate.

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twinpowers
2012-11-04 05:14 am UTC (link)

Was Freddy justified in her anger towards Charlie and Olivia? Hell yes, she thought as she stormed angrily towards the beach. Dressed in a long white linen dress that breathed well, she looked out on the horizon, glaring at the setting sun. Logically, she knew that being taken away wasn't their faults, and she didn't blame them for that. What she did blame them for, and to a certain extent herself for, was the fact that they had ignored many people in the pursuit of nothingness while here on the compound.

She knew with certainty that Liv's training wouldn't make a difference back home, no matter how rigorously she maintained it and that Charlie's solitude, while great for him, made for a lonely feeling Freddy. And maybe it was the fact that a version of her mother had shown up, so male and familiar and wonderful to see, but it hit Freddy hard; causing a sadness and rage she had decided to quiet long ago.

She could spot Olivia anywhere, her tall figure a beacon on the shoreline, and Freddy pushed her forcefully, needing the distance before she could even speak.

"You bitch!" She yelled harshly, tears springing to her eyes against her will. Freddy had missed her terribly; felt awful enough for letting her have her space and she just wanted to hit something. "Do you know what you did?!"

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gottowin
2012-11-04 05:28 am UTC (link)

Olivia could deal with being called a bitch, but would not put up with being pushed. No matter where Freddy's anger stemmed from, Olivia felt it was out of order and immediately upon contact, all her muscles had tightened. Clenching her jaw, she turned around slowly, her eyes narrowing down upon the shorter woman.

"Did? Oh aye. You made it quite clear. I avoided ya and stole your brother away...all intentional and oh so very true, right?"

The tears made Olivia look away to keep her own from flowing down the inflamed cheeks.

"I kept quiet. I avoided ya or perhaps that's what ya think while you were off doin' your own thing, yeah? I was taken. Taken from this fuckin' place and thrown back to my old fuckin' life that I don't even want anymore."

Olivia wiped a tear with the back of her hand before dropping it. Her hands clenched into fists for a moment, feeling totally broken to bits.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry for everything Freddies."

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twinpowers
2012-11-04 05:37 am UTC (link)

Her own eyes were slits as she craned her neck to look at Olivia; certain that steam was pouring out of her ears. She felt alarmingly like her father at that moment; the way her emotions were going haywire regardless of what she wanted. "You ignored us all. For Charlie, for training, for whatever the fuck else was more important to you," Freddy said, her voice almost a growl. "And then, you were gone. But how was anyone to know when you were so absorbed in that bubble that you keep to get away from everyone else."

Fists came loose at her sides as she saw Olivia start to fall apart, but Freddy kept her posture rigid. She would refuse to apologize at that moment, for feeling how she did; for the buttons she had intentionally pushed. But at that moment, her anger turned to hot tears that began to course down her face.

"You left me here," she said through it. "Just like I left you and Charlie and everyone. And without a guarantee of seeing you again, or being able to tell you that I love you or anything like that." Her voice broke on the last word and she wiped her eyes angrily. "And then you come back, acting like nothing's changed."

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gottowin
2012-11-04 05:50 am UTC (link)

"Nothing's changed?" Olivia genuinely frowned. Everything had changed. The compound was not as it once was, people were gone, and the ones brought back were not the age they once first were. Olivia had changed. Older, more humble, and not exactly single. A lot made sense in her old life back home since she was here and it hurt. This place brought memories she wished she had at home which made her never want to go back again.

"I was taken while taking a bleedin' shower so excuse me while I write a little note to the scientists for their fuckin' punctuality."

With a low hiss, Olivia shook her head. "It wasn't your choice to leave me, or anyone like it wasn't my choice to leave here, because Merlina, I wouldn't have if given the choice. And don't start on me about not spending time with ya. You were quite content on spending time with everyone else and not see fit to tag me along or your brother."

All the pent up emotions were becoming too much for Olivia as she backed away from Freddy. "Everything has changed, Freddy. I've changed. I've missed you for years that I didn't realize when I was brought back that I had you....I hate this place. I hate what it does, I hate that it takes everyone away and rarely brings everyone back. I hate that they take away memories...but you...everyone..."

Olivia trailed off and closed her eyes. No more. She apologized and said what little she could before absolutely losing it all.

"I'll stay away from ya Charlie. There won't be any problem there. And as for us, I'll be here, I'll be around...doing nothing. You want to do something, we'll do something...even throw in some random old practices in...but...I don't know what more you want from me there...I'm here...so I guess we'll have to both deal with my being here instead of somebody else's that you would prefer."

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twinpowers
2012-11-04 06:04 am UTC (link)

Everything had changed, and Freddy was just used to adapting to such things with a joke and prank. But everyone just disappearing at the same time, and the whole being sent to this wonderful, serene world was a sick joke and it was starting to make Freddy cynical.

"Really?! Because for weeks, you never once wrote in your journal or were around in your dumb block when I came to find you." And it had started making Freddy crazy. Maybe she had said or done something to push her family over the edge. Maybe being around someone long since dead had become too much to bear.

"I thought I broke you," she finally said quietly; voicing the fear she hadn't wanted to think about at all. "I thought I damaged you like I damaged everyone else, and I couldn't deal with it." She wasn't blind to the fact that she had gone rather silent, too; content to spend time with Georgina and the male version of herself.

Freddy felt weaker still, as more tears came. "I don't want that, Liv. I want you to be happy. But I don't want the cost of that to be putting yourself in solitude." Ironic coming from her, as she did the exact same thing. "I don't want you to disappear."

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gottowin
2012-11-04 06:14 am UTC (link)

"There is nothing, on God's green earth, that could make you break me. I've grown up with you, trained you, played by your side and fought by your side. I supported you in everything you did as long as it didn't interfere with our practices and games. You both were my best mates."

Perhaps she had spent too much time with Charlie but he made her happy which hurt more now than ever. "Bollocks. If I can help it, I'm not going anywhere...and as for my happiness, its been shot so..it doesn't matter."

Olivia got quiet as she swallowed the lump in her throat. There were no more tears as she kept them back. "I'm sorry they couldn't bring someone else for ya."

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twinpowers
2012-11-04 06:29 am UTC (link)

Freddy had, shockingly, fallen silent. What could she say to that? Her friend, however angry she still felt towards her, was hurting and that sucked. "Happiness always has a chance," Freddy said, picking at her nails.

She looked up in shock, however, as Olivia next spoke. "Don't be. There's no one I'd rather have here than you." That was truer than anything else at the moment. "I just wish they hadn't taken you back in the first place."

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gottowin
2012-11-04 06:36 am UTC (link)

"That chance has passed." Olivia felt it had without explaining to anyone as to why. Olivia didn't want to explain it to anyone and secretly prayed that Moran would not show. Not ever.

"But they did...so now I'm stuck. You lot are stuck with me and as mad as you lot are, I'm sorry." Olivia dropped her head and kicked the sand with her foot. "I'm sorry for being an anti-social bitch."

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twinpowers
2012-11-04 06:50 am UTC (link)

Freddy's brow furrowed as she examined her friend. Sure, she had teased her alongside her male variant, but it felt wrong somehow, especially seeing her right in that moment. She simply shrugged her shoulders. It was a lost cause to attempt to get locked down information from Wood. She wouldn't push.

"I know," Freddy said simply, shoulders lax. "And I'm sorry for being just a bitch."

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gottowin
2012-11-04 07:51 am UTC (link)

"Well its nothing new coming from you, just never had it directed towards me." There was a hint of a smile as she tried to make a small joke. "I love you, Freddies, alright? And I promise, if I can help it, I won't leave here. I have a regiment in the morning and evening but I'm open during the day so..."

Olivia sighed and felt utterly exhausted, defeated even. "What should we do?"

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