Maria R. Wiercinski (intoyourheart) wrote in flippedrpg, @ 2012-09-16 09:56:00 |
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Entry tags: | ch: squib: hestia lupin, p: lisa |
Who: Hestia Jones. [closed]
Where: The Lake.
When: Saturday evening.
Rating/Status: Low/Complete narrative.
The gold ring felt hot against the coolness of her hand as Hestia Jones walked down to the lake. She had been hiding it in her pocket since the day her daughter had told her of the divorce. It act as a constant reminder of the life she left behind and the one that laid before her if she ever went back. A symbol of unity and happiness, the ring only left a taste of bitterness in Hestia's mouth. Everything she had hoped to have as a young girl never came true and the worst part was her children were involved. Hestia had a lot of unanswered questions and above all else, she was lacking closure. He wasn't there. Her Remus was not there and she could not come to terms if she even wanted him there. Hestia wanted closure and the only way she could see a closure that would satisfy her nerves and calm her fears was not going to happen. If he were to show up, she couldn't even depend on herself to face him.
To say out loud that she had failed. They had failed.
Hestia had made attempts in writing a letter to him, hoping to find some sort of peace. The letters soon turned into scribbles with tear drops randomly placed upon the paper. She would find herself angry at not only him, but herself. She hated that they tried for so long and it was all for nothing. She was angry that Eris had come out of the divorce the way she had. Not wanting to talk of emotions. Hestia could only assume either they avoided the bigger issue of their marriage, or they simply argued their way to the end. Had he ever loved her? When did she fall out of love with him? Did she try her best? The letters would be thrown across the room, only to find her hand in her pocket, clutching the ring.
The guilt consumed her as she found herself having more fun alone than she ever did while married to Remus. She was finally her own person and no longer had to look out for anyone else besides herself and her daughter. Even then, Eris was so god damn independent, Hestia didn't really need to be worried or overbearing. Hestia was once again, independent, and she thrived in it. No matter how much fun she was having, the guilt still found its way back when she was alone, playing with the ring.
So there Hestia stood, at the edge of the lake. It was calm and the air was cool yet the heat from the rush of tears overwhelmed her. "I feel stupid...for doing this...for talking to nobody." She frowned as she looked down to the ground, kicking the moisture off the green grass. "I guess we were good friends, but nothing beyond that. I'm sorry if I ever felt like I pressured you into getting married. I'm sorry that I didn't try hard enough, that I left you alone to go work when really I just couldn't face the truth. Everyone else was so happy around us that I guess...it would have looked bad if we had broken up so early in the game. It wasn't fair. It isn't fair that everyone else go to be happy and while we tried, it failed. We deserved to be happy, I'm just sorry that it wasn't me."
Hestia took in a deep breath to keep the tears from pouring.
"I'm sorry I couldn't make you happy."
With that, Hestia swallowed her pride and took out the ring. "I want to be happy, Remus, and I can't be happy when I have this brick in my pocket. I have to let you go."
In one swift motion, Hestia threw the ring out into the lake. She shed no tears as Hestia felt there were none to be given to a new start. It was over and he was gone.