Who: Lily & Sirius6-KNAP What: Sirius going to spend the night with Lily When: Monday, 23 July; Evening Where: Her room Warnings: None?
He was scared of seeing Lily, and that was the truth of it. He also felt guilty that she had gotten a dose of the veritaserum, but there wasn't anything he could do about it now. He had needed to make sure that James had gotten it, and he had been concerned that if he warned Lily, she would warn James. He just had to deal with the fact that he had wronged her again.
But it had all seemed to blow up in his face anyway. Instead of proving him right, both of them had upheld their earlier story -- which made it impossible for him to just disregard what they were saying. He still didn't know what to think -- but that was precisely the difference. He no longer had blind faith in what he had been doing. Everything had crumbled around him, and he suddenly was aware that he didn't know where his life began and where it ended.
And so, in the end, even though he was afraid of facing Lily, he also needed her, because she had been almost his sole comfort in the last six years of his life. When she had asked for him to come by her room, he knew that there was no way that he was going to refuse her. He knocked quietly on her door as soon as he arrived. He wondered if James had already told her about their little adventure under the mistletoe.