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waynecymraeg (waynecymraeg) wrote in finnigans_rpg,
@ 2014-10-11 12:02:00

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Journal: [Warded to Dennis]
I'm writing this in my journal hoping you'll see it and not set fire to anything. I was gonna owl you but I don't actually know your last name? Sorry about that by the way.

Look, I meant what I said about your ex. No one deserves that shit, least of all you. Seriously, just hearing about it made me want to kick their heads in.

I didn't mean to upset you at the shop. I haven't been able to sleep, actually, so it's good that I don't work weekends. I was trying to apologise, and I fucked it up even more on accident, which is a very me thing to do.

So, yeah.

Fucking up this bad makes me want to sort of disappear, but I'm out of options now, and I've got to stay here. So we're probably going to run into each other, maybe a lot. So I'd rather you didn't hate me enough to set me alight when you see me.

You seem like a really sweet guy, so please don't think you deserve any of the shit that people seem to have been giving you. It honestly isn't anything about you. You seem to have noticed that I have a fuckton of baggage, and you don't even know the half of it, but the arsehole that I can be - that's not a reflection on you at all. That's just me and my own boatload of shit.

Anyway. See you around maybe. You have good friends, by the way.

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Warded to Wayne Hopkins

dennisthebrave
2014-10-12 06:48 am UTC (link)

Thank you, this is... Unexpected. For the record I wouldn't set fire to things just because you sent me a journal message, so you would've been okay.

My surname's Creevey if that helps.

Thank you. I know I reacted badly to you mentioning my ex, but that tends to be my general reaction to him being mentioned; it's still raw and new. I'm also sorry for bringing up or assuming the whole AA thing - it was pretty low of me.

Admittedly you were actually doing pretty well with the apology until you mentioned Paden. I was peevish for other reasons and that sort of just exacerbated the whole thing. I could have taken it better, so I'm sorry too.

Disappearing sometimes feels like an amazingly right solution, but it never actually works. You just end up fucking yourself over even more than you otherwise would have if you'd stayed to face the music. I know saying that's is like the pot calling the kettle black when I fled out the back yesterday, but that was because I didn't want to cry in front of a stranger. Anyway considering we have mutual friends I think it is pretty likely that we will run into one another. I won't set you alight; breaking kneecaps is more my style. Just kidding. I promise to not be a dick if you promise not to be a prat, how's that sound?

Thank you, that's lovely of you to say. I think you're probably a nice guy too, when you're not drowning in your own baggage. It'd be nice to meet you in a non-sexual and/or confrontational way.

I'll be seeing you, and yes, yes I do.

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Warded to Dennis Creevey

waynecymraeg
2014-10-12 07:33 am UTC (link)

Cool. So we're all right, then? It's just that I really hate having enemies, and I keep forgetting who I'm supposed to have grudges against? It's a particular talent.

I know, I've done my share of disappearing. Like I said, though, this is kind of my last chance, and I don't want to fuck it up. More than I already have. You were sort of on point about the AA thing...just another thing I'm not very good at, I guess. "It works if you work it" is probably true, but it's hard to work it when they keep telling me to believe in something I don't. You were also right. Getting smashed and picking up a stranger in a pub isn't the best way to stay sober.

Anyway.

I promise not to be a prat if you promise not to break my kneecaps until I absolutely deserve it? That'd be pucker. See you around, Dennis Creevey.

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Warded to Wayne Hopkins

dennisthebrave
2014-10-13 12:32 pm UTC (link)

I think yes? I mean if you'd have followed me into the back room yesterday you probably would have been knocked off by Rolf and/or his cat which is approximately the size of Sweden, but yes we're all right now. Maybe you need some sort of list? At least that way you could keep track.

If it's not too personal, why is it your last chance? Surely Australia is where people go for their last chance. But yeah, I think I would find the whole "give up because God" thing a bit hard to stomach myself, but yeah I know exactly what you mean. I'm definitely not doing it again either.

I can categorically promise that really, although should make a list vis-à-vis things that constitute kneecap breaking? Like kidnapping the Queen or stealing a metric tonne of gold maybe?

See you around, Wayne Hopkins.

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Warded to Dennis Creevey

waynecymraeg
2014-10-14 06:15 am UTC (link)

Sort of like those books where you choose your own adventure, and the choices you make lower it down to one possible storyline? Basically like that. I can't really go back to Wales at this point. There's just no place for me there. Australia's also out of the question because I have family stuff tying me in Britain. Does all that make any sense?

I also have a tendency to burn bridges and-or rub people up the wrong way. I don't know if you noticed that particular talent of mine. But yeah that's basically the short version. A bunch of what I'm supposed to do depends on me getting everything on track, which, as you can tell, is something I am absolute pants at.

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