spikessweetgirl (spikessweetgirl) wrote in fieldsofgold, @ 2009-01-07 11:10:00 |
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Entry tags: | through the years dom/lijah |
Through The Years Chapter 5
Present Day
Elijah sipped at his coffee and read the paper, wanting to make the morning one of doing nothing at all but relaxing on his veranda. It had been a long week, between reading scripts that his agent insisted on sending him and going through Dom’s things in the attic…or rather not going through Dom’s things in the attic. He just couldn’t bring himself to do it. The pain had gotten too great, to remember the first days of their love and knowing that he’ll never have that again.
The knock on the door interrupted the quiet morning air, causing Elijah to look up with a grimace. Fuck. This was the last thing he needed. Well meaning company, probably stopping by to make sure he wasn’t a weeping mess after going through all of the memorabilia upstairs. He was tempted to just sit there and hope that whoever it was would go away. He would have done that too, but he knew that doing so would be useless. Whoever it was would just sit outside and wait, so he might as well get up and answer the sodding door. He winced again at that word…Dom’s word. He was never going to get used to not hearing it.
Sighing, He got up and opened the door to the one person that he absolutely didn’t mind a visit from. A person that understood and shared his grief.
“Billy. What are you doing here, man? I thought you were playing a gig in
“I did, but it was cancelled at the last minute. So I decided to come and see if what they say is true,” Billy returned the hug before following the younger man into the quiet house. He bit his lip as fresh tears rose to his eyes. He could still feel Dom here. It’s been a year and there were still signs that once there was a man known as Dominic Monaghan and that he once lived here…and the sense of loss and grief…the room was swimming in it. “Bloody hell, Lij…please tell me that it’s not…that the wanker wasn’t cruel enough to ask you to…”
Elijah sighed, the weight of his task weighting on his shoulders. “It was going to have to be done sooner or later Billy. I couldn’t put it off forever.”
“Well, you should have called me. I’d be here with you. I did promise…”
“I know. You promised Dom that you’d look after me and I appreciate that. But some things…well they were meant to be done alone. “
Billy sighed, shaking his head. He wished Elijah had called him. Even if it was just to sit and hold his hand while he sifted through what must have been painful memories. It wasn’t just that Dom would have wanted him to…it was also that he knew if it were him…he’d need the support. Elijah must be dying inside. “I just wish you had called me. Dom would have wanted you to be with someone while doing this. He wouldn’t have wanted you to be alone…”
Elijah looked away, returning to his seat. “I know. Dom wouldn’t even want me doing this. I could have told Matthew to come look himself…but those things…Dom’s things…they’re private. They’re our memories and I don’t want Matthew ripping through everything looking for the pictures that were taken in
Billy sighed and took the seat opposite Elijah, his eyes examining the younger man. After all these years, Elijah still looked like that 18 year old kid with the angelic face. It was easy to fall in love with that face and that spirit, which was why he never begrudged Elijah Dom’s affections…despite his own feelings. He knew that he could never have made Dom as happy as Elijah had. Elijah had made Dom’s short life one full of love, happiness, laughter, and light.
He closed his eyes and remembered the day that he realized that Dom and Elijah was a couple and not just any couple…that they were soul mates…
Year 1999
It had been a long day of filming and Billy was ready to hit the bars with Dom. It had been too long since they have spent any time together. It seems that for the past month, Dom spent most of his time with Elijah. Not that Billy was complaining. He liked the kid and knew that he and Dom had a lot in common, but there were things that Billy needed to talk about with Dom…feelings that needed to be revealed and decisions to be made. Not that the cheeky one even knew about Billy’s feelings for him. All he knew was that Billy was his best mate in this place and was perfectly straight. If only he knew the truth…
Sighing, Billy stepped out of the trailer to head over to Dom’s. The plan was to drag Dom out tonight, just the two of them. Get them both good and drunk, and then confess all. Tell Dom how Billy thought of nothing but him. How he dreamed about him at night and hung onto his every word during the day. How Billy wanted more than friendship from Dom…that he wanted them to be lovers. This way, just in case Dom didn’t return his feelings, Billy can always blame it on drinking way too much and things could go back to the way they were before. Best mates and Billy joining Elijah in his pining for something he could never have.
Walking up to Dom’s trailer, Billy prepared to knock when he heard an all too familiar giggle. Only one person had a giggle like that. Frowning, he peered through the window and his heart dropped at what he saw. Dom and Elijah, on Dom’s couch. Dom was straddling Elijah, tickling the younger man, mercilessly. Elijah’s was laughing and wiggling to get away to no avail.
Billy swallowed down tears as he came up with a rational explanation for this. Dominic and Elijah were friends. Of course they’d be hanging out at each other’s trailers. It made perfect sense for Dom to be a top the younger actor, tickling him mercilessly while the other one laughed in pure joy. He’d laugh in joy too if he was in that position. Not because he wanted Dom…which they both did. There was no denying that, but because he was having a good time with a dear friend. Pushing back all suspicions, Billy moved to knock on the door when what came next stopped him in his tracks. All laughter had ceased. Billy stood at the window and watched as Dom and Elijah stared into each other’s eyes and all his hopes shattered as he watched their lips join in a kiss that could only exist between lovers. Elijah’s arms had wrapped around Dom’s back and Dom’s elegant fingers tenderly stroked Elijah’s cheek…as if he was the most precious possession in the world.
Billy had stepped back, blinking back tears, his mind reeling. That was supposed to have been him in there. Those lips that Dom was kissing, that cheek that was enjoying the gentle stroke of Dom’s fingers…they were all supposed to have been Billy’s own. Instead, they were Elijah’s, because Billy had waited too long. He had fooled around and allowed the younger, prettier man to step into his place at Dom’s side, instead. Then again…was that place ever really his? Hadn’t he been the first to notice Dom’s crush on Elijah? Hadn’t he made it his mission to tease the brit mercilessly about not having the nerve to tell Elijah his feelings? What had Billy expected?
Billy you twit. What have you been thinking this whole time? Of course, they would have gotten together eventually. Elijah always had a crush on Dom and when you saw Dom beginning to develop a crush of his own…why did you even entertain that you had a chance?
Because I was determined to be blind to what was right in front of me. I didn’t want to know. I wanted to ignore it. But I can’t ignore it now. Dom and Elijah are together…they’re happy together. He had no choice but to let it be. Get over it.
Sighing, he walked back to his tent, feeling horribly alone. The plan he had to woo Dom was now in ruins…and he really couldn’t be angry about it, because he knew that Elijah would love Dom in the way he deserved. What he had witnessed in Dom’s trailer, was the joining of soul mates. Lovers that were meant to be together. Elijah and Dom’s relationship will grow. It’ll stand strong and last for years and years. Elijah and Dom had a life time together…
But they didn’t have that lifetime together. The soul mates were to be parted way too soon, leaving one broken and alone, left with nothing but memories and memorabilia.
“I’m sorry I didn’t call you Billy. I know…I know that you loved him too and would have helped. But I couldn’t put you through that. It’s bad enough that I have to…,” Elijah interrupted Billy’s thoughts, staring down at the table he was sitting at.
“Next time, call me. Ok? I don’t mind it. Dom would want me to be here for you and that’s what I aim to do.”
Elijah just smiled, feeling happy and relieved. He knew Billy, if anyone, would understand his pain. Wiping away stray tears from his eyes, Elijah got up to make some tea.