"My only method of coping has been to do other things- to stay active, to feel as if I am somehow contributing, to making the kingdom better. I get that, from the knighthood. It is perhaps a less selfless reason than I ought to claim- and, please, do not misunderstand and think that it is my only reason! But I will not deny that it has helped, since my parents' passing. I have to trust that it will help again, this time."