"I'm trying," she started. "It's not- I've apologized to her already. I know what I said was out of line and I know it's irrational of me to be bothered by something that I cannot change. I don't know how to fix it- or rather, I don't know how to fix myself so that things are better faster." Abby was quiet for a moment as she picked up her tea for another sip, considering her words. "I'm..I know there's something there with the three of you that I can never know or be a part of. I know that you two need her, and I'm not trying to take that away by any means. No, I don't like to think about it. Yes, that's cowardly of me. But I'm afraid, too. I don't want to fail at this, especially with her watching my every move. And I don't know how to not be afraid of that yet."