aaronlisa (aaronlisa) wrote in fadeddreaming, @ 2008-01-02 20:17:00 |
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Current location: | home |
Current mood: | nervous |
Current music: | joy division - shadowplay |
Entry tags: | !crossover, character: dean winchester, character: faith lehane, character: sam winchester, community: drabble123, fandom: buffyverse, fandom: supernatural |
[SPN/BtVS] To the Centre of the City Where All Roads Meet... (1/9)
I've written a nine part Supernatural drabble series (each part being 300 words in length) that's very different from my normal style of writing. It ended up being a crossover with Buffy the Vampire Slayer.
Title: To the Centre of the City Where All Roads Meet…
Author: aaronlisa
Rating: FR13
Pairing/Characters: Dean Winchester, mentions of Sam Winchester
Disclaimer: Supernatural belongs to Eric Kripke and company. The title comes from the Joy Division song “Shadowplay.”
Prompts: drabble123 – prompt #1 (fade from random #1 set)
Notes: Set post-Season Two.
Summary: Dean has nightmares about the night he couldn’t save Sam.
Word Count: 300
He has nightmares about the night that Sam died, when he had held his younger brother in his arms and he had faded away. He wakes up from these nightmares with his fist jammed into his mouth to stifle the screams, covered in sweat with the scratchy motel sheets sticking to him. As he blinks away the horrible images of finding Sam and always being too late to save him, he always sits up and turns to the bed his brother is in.
When he’s managed to control himself, he silently moves to his brother’s bed and watches Sam sleep in the near-dark of the motel room. He counts how many breaths Sam takes: one, two, three, four and it becomes some sort of mantra that seems to calm him down.
Five, six, seven, eight: Sam is safe and he’s sold his soul for this. Nine, ten, eleven, twelve: Sammy’s gonna survive because he’s made his deal to ensure that. Thirteen, fourteen, fifteen, sixteen: all of the fear and terror from the nightmare fade into nothingness and he heads to bathroom. Seventeen, eighteen, nineteen, twenty: he finds comfort by the thought that after he dies, Sam’s gonna live.
He’s done his job right and he’s kept Sam alive because when it comes down to it, the one thing that their father drilled into his head from the very start was that Sam had to be saved. And as he goes through the mechanical motions of washing the sweat and nightmare off of his skin, he holds to that lesson.
Of course he’s afraid of dying, but he can’t let Sam think that his impending death terrifies him. If Sam knew, then his brother would try to find a way out and he knows that there’s no way out for him.
Part Two