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Cato, District 2 Tribute (prideof2) wrote in expresslogs,
@ 2012-05-09 18:04:00

Current music:	Why God Why - from "Miss Saigon"
Entry tags:	!open, !plot, cato, {glimmer

There's Nothing Left Here That I'll Miss - Why Send me Now A Night Like This?
Characters: Cato and Open!
When: Wednesday Night/Thursday morning, around 3am
Location: Outside his room, #803
Warnings/Rating: Hunger Games characters should really have their own warning tag. XD Angst, talk of violence, language...
Summary: Cato wakes up in the middle of the night and feels overwhelmed by angst and music
Status: Open and ongoing! Anyone feel free to throw things at him for belting out his song in the middle of the night, or whatever you like. :)

Cato had awakened in the middle of the night, his mind full of thoughts and feelings. This had happened before, but it wasn't something he made public. Feelings were weakness, feelings would get you killed. That was the way he had been taught, and the way he had learned to live. Everyone has feelings, he had been taught, But the strong...the Victors...learn to control them. To master them, until you rule them and show them as rarely as possible. Leave feelings to children and those who do not need to be strong.

It was a lesson he had taken to heart, but since he had arrived on the train, so many things had happened. He had made a friend in Maryanne. He had never had one of those before. He had found a lover, in Glimmer. He had never thought of having one of those. And there were so many strange and new feelings competing in his mind that they rarely let him sleep through an entire night.

So he got up, pulled on a pair of sweats (not bothering with a shirt) and stepped out into the hallway. He hadn't gotten far when he was overcome with an urge to...sing. He leaned against the wall of the train, and let it out, not worrying about the volume. Strangely, he was quite good - not that he (or anyone else) would have imagined that.

Why does this train never sleep at night?
Why does this girl smell of orange trees?
How can I feel good when nothing's right?
Why is she cool when there is no breeze?
Stupid train...
You don't give answers, do you friend?
Just questions that don't ever end...

Why God? Why today?
I'm all through here, on my way
There's nothing left here that I'll miss
Why send me now a night like this?
Who is the girl in this rusty bed?
Why am I back in a tiny room?
Why is her voice ringing in my head?
Why am I high on her cheap perfume?

Stupid train...
Hey look I mean you no offense
But why does nothing here make sense?
Why God? Show your hand
Why can't one guy understand?
I've fought with girls who knew much more
I never felt confused before

Why me? What's your plan?
I can't help her, no one can
I liked my mem'ries as they were
But now I'll leave rememb'ring her

...

Why God? Why this face?
Why such beauty in this place?
I liked my mem'ries as they were
But now I'll leave rememb'ring her
Just her!!

By the end, he's totally belting it out, and honestly, his voice is strong and beautiful - a talent nobody knew he had, but not something they're going to be glad to find out at three am.

[OOC: Here is a live performance of the (un-edited) song.]

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starof1
2012-05-09 11:09 pm UTC (link)

It was true that Glimmer didn't sleep heavily either--partially a remnant of her training, which didn't bother her, but partially because of...things that did. A bit. Not as much as she'd been taught they were supposed to. And it wasn't so much bother as confusion, really.

So she spent a good share of time awake, trying to puzzle out all of these new and strange and sort of frightening things she was feeling. And not just for Cato--though that was a huge part of it--but the fact that she was teaching some girl how to fight, and learning how to dance and sort of having fun in that, and that Cato's friend Maryanne seemed to worry about her--

But at the moment she was sleeping. Or had been. At first, she wasn't aware of the words at all. Just that someone was singing in the hallway at three in the fucking morning. She was up and at the door, not caring that she was only wearing a bra and shorts because she had bigger things on her mind like shutting up whoever was making so much noise however she had to, when--

"...Cato? What the fuck?" She didn't yell, like she'd been preparing to. The words came out very confused and barely above a whisper, more to herself than him as she leaned against the doorway, just staring.

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prideof2
2012-05-10 01:47 am UTC (link)

Cato had finished just as she cussed him out for it, and he looked at her, slightly grimacing and slightly confused. He wasn't going to apologize - fuck that - but he was a little surprised that he'd been singing. That was...really fucking weird.

"Glimmer. Thought you were asleep."

His words were a little harsher than he meant for them to be, but that was that.

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	starof1 2012-05-10 01:53 am UTC (link)
	She snorted slightly, "Yeah, I was, 'til someone started singing right outside our room." Despite her irritated tone--because seriously, what the hell--she wasn't...mad, really. Just tired and puzzled, the latter of which clearly showed on her face. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	prideof2 2012-05-10 02:02 am UTC (link)
	"Didn't know One trained their girls to be such light sleepers." Yeah, insulting her District and training probably wasn't the best idea, but he wasn't in the best of moods either, and was more than a little embarrassed by what she'd just seen. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	starof1 2012-05-10 02:05 am UTC (link)
	She raised an eyebrow, "And fuck you too. Do you know how fucking loud you were? Surprised half the damn train hasn't come to yell at you." Easier to rip into him then think about the fact he'd been singing, let alone any of the words she'd been able to make sense of once her brain let her process what was going on. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

prideof2
2012-05-10 02:10 am UTC (link)

"Yeah? Was I too fucking loud? You know what? Huh?"

And he took a step closer to her.

"I don't fucking give a shit. I can be as loud as I want, and if someone doesn't like it, they can freaking take it up with me? Okay? And that includes you, blondie."

Had she been anyone else, he probably would have physically threatened her, or even hit her, but...he just couldn't bring himself to do that to her. It seemed far too shitty and lower class a thing to do, especially with how he felt about her. He'd seen his dad hit his mom way too many times, and he wasn't going to be a fucktard like his dad. You just didn't hit people you loved. It wasn't right.

Loved?? Where the fuck had that come from? With that thought, he started, and glared at her even more, shoving his hands in his pockets.

"Just go the hell back to sleep."

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starof1
2012-05-10 02:20 am UTC (link)

Another girl her size might of cowered when Cato's temper boiled up like that, but even half asleep Glimmer wasn't like most the girls on this train.

Without even thinking she'd shifted her feet to be ready to spring her hands at his throat or eyes, and then suddenly she had been thinking. Thinking that she didn't want to do that, and not just because it would get everyone else on this train riled if they actually fought. There was a feeling that things would be different in a way she didn't want if they actually fought with the real intent of hurting each other.

So she was glad when he backed off, standing herself down. "Yeah, sure. Just--try to keep it down," she said, though the bite wasn't in her voice anymore for some reason, and she couldn't make herself glare--couldn't even look at him as she slipped back into the room.

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	prideof2 2012-05-10 02:24 am UTC (link)
	When she was gone, the hallway seemed very lonely and quiet, so he followed her back into the room, sitting on the bed in silence for a moment. "It's probably something fucked up the train is doing. Making us sing and fucked up shit like that. I don't sing. Singing's for wimps and sissies. What did you hear, anyway?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	starof1 2012-05-10 02:36 am UTC (link)
	She blinked, a little surprised that he was back and talking about it. She hadn't really been paying attention until realising it was him singing, just intent at shutting up whoever it was. But then... "Uh. Something about fighting with other girls and--" her nose wrinkled a bit as she remembered the other words. The hell. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	prideof2 2012-05-10 02:44 am UTC (link)
	"Yeah, well, it was probably stupid shit anyway. It sounded like a stupid song, didn't it?" He really didn't want to be in this situation right now. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

starof1
2012-05-10 02:50 am UTC (link)

She wanted to say that anything sounded pretty stupid when you were woken by it at a ridiculous hour, but she didn't want to start fighting again. Better to just let the whole damn thing drop, even if she couldn't get some of those damn words out of her head now and sort of wondered why that song.

"Yeah, pretty much. Just another stupid thing this damn train's pulling on us."

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	prideof2 2012-05-10 02:53 am UTC (link)
	"I hate this fucking train, Glimmer. But, I mean, if what 12 says is true...I mean...I know it's the honorable thing to do, but I'm..." He took a deep breath, not knowing how to say this without sounding like a total pussy. "I'm not...ready to die yet." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	starof1 2012-05-10 02:59 am UTC (link)
	Even knowing that it sounded weak, or at least that their trainers would have said something like that, Glimmer just inhaled a little herself before nodding. "Yeah...me neither." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	prideof2 2012-05-10 03:06 am UTC (link)
	Cato smiled slightly, relieved that she hadn't immediately condemned him for having such thoughts. "We could get off eventually, you know. If we find a place we like. Just get off and stay there and never go back home..." Did that sound rebellious? Rebellion was the last thing he wanted, but it sounded like such a good idea to him. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	starof1 2012-05-10 03:10 am UTC (link)
	Glimmer rose an eyebrow, but didn't speak for a moment. Well, considering there wasn't anything for them back home, not now if ever.... "Yeah? Hadn't really thought about that, but--yeah, maybe. Can't be hard to find somewhere that's better than this fucked up train, anyway." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	prideof2 2012-05-10 03:13 am UTC (link)
	He lay back down on the small bed, on his back, looking up at her. He was still just wearing the sweatpants he had put on to go out in the hallway. "So, um, what did you hear of the song?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

starof1
2012-05-10 03:23 am UTC (link)

He actually still wanted to talk about it? That was...surprising, more than anything. She shrugged a little, pulling her legs up on to the bed.

"Guess...everything after that line about a rusty bed and--" she stopped as the words played back in her mind, and god this fucking train it couldn't have come up with something less awkward and...whatever the hell else was working at her nerves.

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	prideof2 2012-05-10 03:26 am UTC (link)
	"Everything after that?" He clapped his hand to his face. "Fuck me," he said with a great deal of stress and embarrassment in his voice. "Do you think you can just...forget?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	starof1 2012-05-10 03:31 am UTC (link)
	Yeah, because that'd be easy. But fuck, not like dragging it out anymore was going to do any good. So she just nodded, flopping back on to her side. "Yeah, sure. Already forgotten." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	prideof2 2012-05-10 03:36 am UTC (link)
	He smiled at her, leaning in to kiss her quickly. Then for a few moments more, he was quiet. "Glimmer, let's make a truce. A longer one. Not just a night or two. While we're on the train, let's not hurt each other. I don't...like the idea of hurting you. It feels wrong." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	starof1 2012-05-10 03:39 am UTC (link)
	She tilted her head a bit, but nodded and reached up to return the kiss. "Yeah. Truce. I...don't like the thought of hurting you, either." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	prideof2 2012-05-10 03:47 am UTC (link)
	"Good," he smiled, and snuggled in next to her. "Night." He hoped that this night could fade into the darkness, and never be mentioned again...but he had a feeling that was far too much to ask. (Reply to this) (Parent)