He dropped his head at the other Doctor’s suggestion he had done what he had to do, that he had no other choice. A sniffle escaped him, forcing tears back as he focused on the calculations he had made on the flooring “I didn’t want to kill them you have to believe me…I…I had to save the universe…the greater good yes? Yes….” Nine curled his bony digits into fists the released resting them on his face then swipe upwards brushing his unruly locks back “I’m trying very hard to keep together! It takes ever fiber of my being to do so but the rage and the guilt are ripping me apart….” His teeth bit down on his lip in thought that was when he saw something. He gathered his shoe up, studying the bottom for a moment fingering it for a second until he decided to wait to find out why it seemed so strange. The Doctor turned back to the other running a hand through his hair “She is close….I can feel her….so close yet so far away!” He muttered.