Okay. [He takes a moment to push himself into the right mindset. It's harder than he ever thought it would be, because this is as far from work as he could possibly get.]
Right now... you're going through an identity crisis triggered by a significant personal loss, but unlike most cases dealing with loss this is something that constantly affects you. You're not grieving the loss of a loved or dealing with external changes, you're dealing with the loss of self which in turn means that you can't escape from it. Any attempt to distract yourself from it only reminds you of the person you thought you were and now no longer feels like.
Your identity as a mutant was what gave you a sense of belonging in the past, and with the loss of your powers you not only lost your identity but also the thing that connected you to a group. It makes you feel alone and vulnerable, uncomfortable in your own body. Frustrated. Depressed, because you feel like you've lost control over the things you could control better than anyone. You're forced to rely on someone, which only strenghtens the feelings of helplessness.
But... despite all that, you keep trying. That's why it doesn't look so bad.