Right. [It's like they're limping to inevitable death, battered and bruised with booze just a stop on the way. She feels majorly foolish now, considering how hard she thought about life and death once already; her decision then was so hard to make. And it just resulted in this all over again. And so she's just trying to muster up the courage to choose again, thinking about how she's supposed to ask Spike to kill her twice and come up with a response to 'and what if it doesn't work' when she just about walks into a stationary bot sitting out on the street. Were they out, all along? It was hard to tell with the lights off and bumps all through the night.
She routes around it without much thought, rubbing her hip and unaware when behind her, it starts moving again.]