[They are his words, repeated back to him. The ones he said to her when she asked if they could work together. The ones that shoved her away more than he probably ever meant them to or thought they would. But it was in that moment she realized how much she'd failed him and made his life worse by just being in it. It was that moment when she felt unwanted like he realized the same thing.
It's been two weeks now. Two weeks of being so completely alone. One week of aching over what she did to Tyki and Road. She'd been an assassin for years. She'd killed in action even longer, but she'd never tortured people like that. She didn't know she was capable of it until it was happening. What kind of person let's that happen? What kind of person makes that happen? Tyki was wrong when he called her a sadist. She took no pleasure in it. But that didn't stop her from doing it. And why?
Why?
Even Reid asked her that. She hadn't even known about the Tease. She committed to killing a man she honestly cared about because Reid ended things with her. Because she believed there was more to it. Because she believed Tyki was involved even though Reid said he wasn't.
Did it feel right at the time or was it just because she was hurting? Was it like the fire? Was there something wrong with her? Was she just another monster that someone like Reid should hunt down and stop?
Her eyes close after she says the words and that might have been the end of it, but for the tear that slips down her cheek.]