[ As much as he wants things to get better, he never wants her to know. Never. If she knew, things would never be able to go back to normal and that alone makes him stick to dodges and half-truths even though he really should know better by now.]
I told you... he said that if I didn't do as he said, if I didn't stay away from you... it wasn't just about me. He'd go after Garcia, and I doubt he would've stopped there. I couldn't let that happen... I would've told you, once he held up his end of the deal or— [ Or it became obvious that he wouldn't.]